there's something that is keeping this relationship of ours going.

i thank God for that.

i love you, God.
and i love you, rasyid.

i took the wrong bus to get to serangoon yesterday.
i ended up at ang mo kio, but thank god for mass rapid transit.

work was simple.
all of us finished closing by 10.15pm, and started strutting our butts around the store, trying to waste time.

and i love my phone, albeit my photography skills deteriorating.


my angle of elevation is disappointing. tsk.


where is the enlightenment?


ida ida bananananarama.


if i had that kind of hair in swiss, mdm tanker would punch my face.

and the boyfriend's back frm the hospital!
breaking fast with him later, oh i cant wait (:

i hope i dont have to piggyback him.

the long absence.

i've been deprived of any internet or wireless services, since i was kept occupied running around over the weekend.

the boyfriend was admitted to tan tock seng hospital for some leg infection on sunday morning. or rather, during pre-dawn meal to be exact.

here's how the story goes.

on saturday, before work started at 3pm for me,
the boy fetched me from home, and we headed to jurong west community library to watch...

SENIMAN BUJANG LAPOK!

it was super exciting, i tell you watching with the portable dvd player!
we spent roughly an hour plus over there, just laughing over the funny antics,
and commenting on the vintage outfits during those times.

as if that wasnt enough, we watched surfs up in the train, on the way to orchard (:
we were two very hyper people in the train!

ok fast forward a bit.

after sending me to work, he headed to his workplace to get ready for work.
but in the midst of working,
i received an alarming sms from him.

"my foot very swollen! i cant walk properly!"

but i was at work, right?
and i couldnt possibly run out from delifrance and rush over to clarke quay.

so being a rational and calm girlfriend, i replied,

"ok babe. must chill k? i'll pick you up from work later!"

so after closing was done at around 11pm sharp, i zoomed my way to clarke quay, and to my dismay,

HIS LEFT FOOT WAS SO SWOLLEN, I ALMOST CRIED WHEN I SAW IT!

it's very crestfalling to see the boy limp his way through :X
and that stubborn boy refused to go home!
he insisted on sending me home!

so when i reached home at 1am,
guess where he went to?

he actually limped (yes, LIMPED) his way to pioneer mall's macdonald to watch harry potter!
you could never imagine the anger that was accumulating in me, and the fumes that were coming out from my ears in the wee hours.

so i got upset, and went to sleep. and my handphone actually switched off automatically.

at 5am, i woke up for pre-dawn meal, and got strings of messages sent from 3am to 5am itself.

i called him and asked where he was.

"baby, im at tan tock seng."

a normal girlfriend would have panicked and perhaps ask a million questions.
but i was abnormal. so i said,

"BEDEK! dont lie to me!"

and his uncle talked to me on the phone. so malu kan.
later his uncle might think im heartless.

so after work at delifrance ended at 3pm,
we three musketeers went to visit the boy.



(:

and the boyfriend was so weak during his first day there.
and can you imagine, i was there for three consecutive days.
i was eventually worn out, having to go down to the first level (he was at the 12th),
and buy food for him.

im so tired now.


i wanted him to pose like that for me.


my hand was too short to take a proper one.


some sick person clipped my nails for me!!


yayy yayy.

and now? im very hungry.

tgif!

exactly seven days more to end of attachments.

seven mundane days.

yessar.

someone's being a bitch in the office now.

which is why i cant wait to go back to delifrance and get those baguettes to rock my soul.

and and and, here's my deli roster for the week after next.

monday - 8am to 4pm
tuesday - 8am to 4pm
wednesday - 3pm to 11pm
thursday - 10am to 6pm
friday - 3pm to 11pm
saturday - 3pm to 11pm
sunday - 10am to 6pm

as you can see, im quite an ambitious and energetic and enthusiastic young girl.

Mira, in the morning, you're Still Sleepy

Sleepyheads like you are the reason they invented the snooze button. "Another five minutes! Just another five minutes." Okay, maybe one more...But eventually you do get up to face the day and arrive wherever you need to be in somewhat decent shape.That said, after your initial reluctance to get out from under the covers, we'd guess you're pretty eager to get your day going. And while you probably won't be up with the roosters (or at least volunteer to be), you're able to be surprisingly productive before noon. Sometimes you just may need a little nudge or strong cup of coffee to get going. Then you'll be off and running!

What's Your Morning Personality?
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how true.




Mira, your relationship destiny is to Find a Fairy Tale Ending

Cinderella, Snow White — those ladies knew what they were doing. And like these fairy tale heroines, you're a princess at heart who believes that love really does make the world go round. Of course, you're not waiting to be swept off on someone's white horse — you're a modern gal who's not afraid to do a little rescuing yourself.Independent and confident, you're not about to rely on fate to give you what you want. You've got the drive and spirit to pursue your dreams and find your own destiny. And you're sure to bump into Prince Charming along the way. That's a happy ending!

What's Your Relationship Destiny?
Brought to you by Tickle

(:




Mira, you have a Fearful Avoidant relationship attachment style.

You tend to have mixed feelings about relationships. A part of you may want to have a close, loving relationship, but another part of you may be somewhat uncomfortable with commitment. It's also likely that you are afraid others will let you down or abandon you. Although you tend to be open to relationships, you may not easily reveal the true you, and potential partners are likely to be intrigued about discovering the person you are deep down. Attachment style begins in infancy with the interactions we have with our parents or primary caregivers. Through these early relationships we begin to understand the dynamics and patterns of close relationships and we carry this perspective into our adult relationships. 31% of those who have taken our test share this style of attachment.When you choose a romantic partner you tend to gravitate towards those who have what psychologists call a preoccupied attachment style. These are people who show a great deal of openness and are eager to get close in a relationship. People with this attachment style can be very devoted partners. Your answers on our test show that when it comes to relationships you have grown beyond your earliest attachment issues. While you may not have every issue resolved, you're making substantial progress at establishing healthy relationship patterns.

Are You a Secure Lover?
Brought to you by Tickle

i wanna do more tickle tests, but my eyelids are getting heavier by the moment.

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happy 17th, balloon-head!

happy 19th, diyana!

:)

it's lunchtime.

and have i mentioned that i am crazy over a particular anime flick since forever?



akazukin cha cha is my new addiction on the Internet now (:

and i didnt wake up for pre-dawn meal this morning.
which explains why im grumpy and groggy and all.

more. later.

a few weeks back was dearest syafiq who left delifrance.
now?



ibnur aliff.

you'll be terribly missed as well.
and to think i was looking forward to you finishing your N's.
will still love you boy (:

i dont know why im getting so emotional over people leaving the workplace for good.

and i miss someone.
you wont know who you are, and how special our platonic friendship is to me. <3

for those who tried contacting me by my 9387***4 number, sorry you couldnt reach me.

im currently using my prepaid number, 8265***4.

please do email me if you need my current number.

starhub was a bitch for suspending my line.
and i was also the bitch for procrastinating my bill payment.

i still have $320 to pay starhub.

help, anyone?

one number: fourteen.



happy thirteen months, turtledove.

the 10K taka deli team.

from the picture itself, the ones left are:

me
ida
siti
nanan

im serious. the rest, have sadly, left the place.
so now you know part of the reason i am contemplating to leave the workplace.

anyway,
today's the start of Ramadhan, the fasting month for all the Muslims global wide.
it's really tranqulizing to wake up at 4.30 in the morning,
smell the fresh air outside,
and sit down to a plate of nuggets, sausage and scrambled eggs (:

even the boyfriend was awake.

oh. and yesterday was my second year working in delifrance.
i'd better scrap the idea to quit.

suicidal. suicidal.

what a fucking irritating song.

my second update for the day.

i have tuesday blues today, and im sad.
im clad in a green top, a purple cardigan, black jeans, and light purple tudung.
not forgetting, my brown slippers. very unmatching colours.

i feel very dysfunctional today, and i've left my mobile phone at home because i was rushing to get to the bus stop before the rain gets me.

i spent the whole morning copying and pasting books' synopsis and verifying the correct ISBN numbers to the correct title and authors.
now im finally done but the aftermath are the ISBN numbers dancing around in my already-twirling head.

too many numbers harm me.



girlfriends, what happened to yok-kita-pegi-spa-on-the-seventh plan?



and you. i miss you.


mum: mira, got two new messages in your phone.

me: oh. from who?

mum: from syafiq sunardi, and hairezal. who's syafiq sunardi?

me: my friend la, mum.

mum: oh. yg handsome tu eh?

me: ya ya. can you tell me what they messaged?

mum: then who's hairezal?

me: my friend la! MUM!

mum: *reads both messages* ok ciao cin ciao!

!!!!!!!!!! my mum loves anak metropolitan, i think.

two weeks is what i need right now.

honesty is the policy, and truth kills.

both mentioned above, are killing me at present.

i thought we were in love?

two more weeks to the end of attachments.
can hardly wait.

lets backtrack on what happened over the weekend.

friday

worked the night shift at delifrance,
only to my dismay, realised that syafiq had resigned abruptly from work.
it was only a day before that he asked me to tahan all the shit that has been happening at work.
and then he quit.
you'll be missed, love.

after work, had a very late night supper cum early morning breakfast with adib.



i finally had my mcspicy after a week long of whining and craving. yayyy!

saturday

worked the opening shift, and discovered how stoned i was while doing all the cashiering and beverages.
the boyfriend picked me up from work at three, and we headed down to funan to purchase a pair of backphones for my phone.

wrong choice.

the backphones were flimsy. so much for being reasonably cheap and limegreen in colour.
$12 gone in a blink.



sunday

worked the opening shift again :X
i was told to train two new managers in cashier and beverage,
and while doing so, i felt a tinge of awkwardness.
i mean, there was no point having to train them because they already know the basics to making the various beverages.

and they mastered cashiering quite fast.
work started to get boring after that.
all i did was sashayed my way to the kitchen to collect the clean coffee cups and tumblers.

then thats it.

left work promptly at three, and headed home with an apathetic look on my face.
to make things worse, i came back to an empty house.
and i had left my house keys with the boyfriend the day before.

!!!!!!

so i sat at the corridor while waiting for him to come.
he passed me the keys and left to meet his friends.
like a dissipated child, i sat in front of the teevee and had a good, four hours worth of CSI Miami.

that perked up my day a bit, truth to be told.

and i had company while watching CSI too.





she sleeps on my bed, eats on my lap, and shares the same interests as me (:

i met the boyfriend after that.







and then he insisted on 3G-ing on his way home.
here are the pictures i snapped while 3G-ing with him.
and mind you, he was in the train at thate point of time.
below are some disgustingly explicit pictures.











eventually i stopped snapping his pictures because they were too yucky.
hahahaha.
i cant believe i just uploaded his pictures online.

and today?

im having the monday blues!
and here are the some pictures of shaiful and us.
gay alert. spot the gay.







if you think that im the gay one among all three,
then you ought to shoot yourself to death.

tgif.

im itching for some fried mars bars from chippy right now.



and i miss my boyfriend.

today, i shall be random.

- i am pmsing real bad.

- i need to go home from work, pronto.

- i have many many many negative thoughts on my mind.

- i might be quitting delifrance.

- i've lost my appetite to eat.

- i've lost my will to talk.

- i am lacking mood to even do anything.

- i wanna punch someone badly.

- i feel like crying and laughing at the same time.

- someone just told me she saw my boyfriend with another girl yesterday.

- but im too stoned to even do anything, so im keeping mum.

- i wanna pee but i dont wanna lift my butt off my seat.

- i have three more weeks to end of attachments.

- i feel like killing myself and die like my tamagotchi.

- mr computer-man-can is coming to my house to fix my wireless connection and laptop.

- i owe mum $70 and she still remembers it.

i am so random - i think i shall pee.

i miss my best friend.

and while clearing my cast-off emails,
i stumbled upon my best friend's email sent to me on April 6, 2005.

a freaking two years ago, but her words still affected me in a positive way.

assalamualaikum

apa kahabar kawan ku di jurong sana?ok,i know you'd be lying if you said you're fine because you're obviously not!as a friend i can't help reading depressing entries on your blog and not do anything.

are you still dwelling on your sister's disrespect towards you?or are there more complex matters? sometimes i wish there were 48 hours in a day so that i can study,chill with my friends and hang out with my loved ones like you,especially now that you need a crying shoulder.maybe sufie is a blessing in disguise.haha...at least she's a good listener and you girls click really well kan.

honestly sometimes i feel bad that i have to channel so much time into studying that i don't really have time to socialise.and hang out with my best girlfriends.because sometimes i feel lonely without my girlfriends.i miss you girls so badly.but we have to move on right.sigh.

but i do hope you understand ya.and PLEASE.if you need any shoulder to cry on AT ALL,please please please know that i'm just a phone call away.it doesnt matter even if i'm busy because sometimes i need a break as well.and of course most importantly i want you to feel better should you have any problems,okay?come on lah,we've known each other for years.

and wat's with the inferiority complex,girl?
you are definitely not:

1)loathed you are well loved.by your mommy,your daddy,your sisters.(yes including syazana too.she'll come to her senses one day lah,insyallah.and for goodness sake,you have me,sufie,luqman,syazrul..and the list goes on!!)
2)loser remember you got like near 40 points for L1R5 once during sec3?look where you are now.yalah,except maybe u never get your first choice.hehe.maybe that part the tak nasib baik kan,ape nak buat.
3)obnoxious haha.are you joking?you are one of the nicest,sweetest people i've ever met lah!!i'm the one who is obnoxious.
4)rejected another one.count how many friends you have.tak terkira kan?
5)shunned ok,rejected and shunned same meaning.
6)undesirable right................................remember momo,ariff,fahrul,zul
7)unwanted you are still wanted.
8)disesteemed this perhaps holds some truth.you're beautiful and smart.seriously.but you lack the confidence sometimes.dari sec 1 aku kenal kau,u seem to always self-administer codemnation when there's really nothing wrong with you! semua orang pun ade kecacatan. i have a lot of personal flaws too.come on girl,pluck up that confidence ok?you look really sweet when you smile,loads of guys can attest to that.all your loved ones would like to see your megawatt simle 24/7.come on,you have a beautiful face and soul already.accessorise them with a beautiful smile,okay?

if you're still feeling low,then i got a joke for you.


Pig In A Bar

A lady goes into a bar with her goose. Then the bartender comes up to her and says, ''Why did you have to bring the pig in with you?'' Then the lady answered, ''Excuse me, I think this is a goose.'' And the bartender says, ''Excuse me, I was talking to the goose.''


HAHAHAHAHA.sorry if it's not funny.

but i hope it can put a smile on your face!

so remember ok,i am here,sufie is here,syaz is here,your mommy is there beside you,we love you,dear.

i should be going and mug for my bio test.sedih kan?

good luck for nyp.i'm sure you'll have fun there.

take care of yourself okay?lift up that chin and wipe those tears.

lots of love,
nisa a.k.a master sergeant nisa a.k.a budak raffles aka the best in higher malay a.k.a yang dapat 7 points tu a.k.a YOUR BEST FRIEND.

thats my best friend for you.
our timing never fail to clash nowadays,
and we never get to meet as often like we did before.
i never told her i loved her.
and i never mentioned that i really do miss her.

absence makes the heart fonder?

the plan yester-evening was to accompany the boyfriend to his job interview at clarke quay.
but being me, i was late and he got upset.
so he went off without me and i had to degradedly find my way to clarke quay itself until he finished his darn interview.

we quarrelled a bit, but eventually both started laughing because we were too dog-tired to continue tongue-lashing.

(: we went to have dinner at swensens, shaiful's treat for boyfriend's birthday,
and cabbed home tickled pink.

i love you.

im sorry to say this.

but i love you, baby.

sunday was spectacular.
the wind was just nice.
the drizzle was just as right.

it was the kind of a simple birthday celebration i wanted YOU to have.

and we finally talked things out.

im more than ready now should any one of us wanna end things in the future.

i love you.
happy belated 18th, sugar.

and to balloon-head,

im more than happy to help you.

loves.