hari ini, terasa pula keinginan untuk mengemaskini blog menggunakan bahasa Melayu.
entah mengapa, impak kemarahan lebih terselah jika ditulis dalam bahasa Melayu.

hari ini juga, aku telah meluangkan 20 minit dari masa harianku untuk berlari-lari anak di kawasan perumahanku.
mungkin juga, ketika berlari, rasa kebengisan akan lenyap dengan serta-merta.

semalam, syahril terburu-buru meninggalkan rumahku setelah menerima panggilan daripada ibu saudaranya.
katanya, ada masalah keluarga sedikit.
sememangnya, aku bukanlah seorang yang banyak bertanya.
lagipun, keadaan semalam huru-hara juga ketika dia menerima panggilan tersebut.
aku pun sedang menikmati hidangan udang - tidak sempat untuk mengucapkan selamat tinggal dengan sempurna.
tidak manis kalau aku berbual dan sisa-sisa udang tergantung di tepi gigiku, kan?

sudah sehari suntuk syahril tidak menghubungiku.
rasa ganjil pula tiada orang yang menelefon ketika aku sedang buntu memikirkan murid-muridku yang setengah dajal itu.

jadi hari ini, aku hanya dapat meluahkan perasaan geramku pada aisyah.
aisyahlah yang mendengar luahanku, dialah yang banyak beri pengajaran untukku.
aku hampir-hampir berputus asa dengan kerjaya yang baharu sahaja bermula ini.
entah mengapa, hatiku rasa berat beberapa hari ini untuk ke kelas.

apakah aku seseorang yang senang berputus asa?
ataupun keadaan sekolah ini yang membuatku begini?

aku tidak boleh berhenti begitu sahaja.
sudah banyak dugaan yang ditempuh dalam masa 6 bulan mengajar di sekolah ini.

banyak sungguh perkara yang menghinggap di benak fikiranku ini.
berkecamuk.
bercelaru.
sakit otak jika difikirkan.

dan yang paling sedih?
aku tiada tempat mengadu.

mahu juga aku hentakkan kepalaku di tembok Hannah Montana adikku.

we went to the zoo today.
the people involved were:



obviously me. and dini.



lala. dina.



shikin, lala's best friend.



and syahril.


EH SORRY. WRONG PICTURE! haha.



ah! now this is the correct one.
and syahril :)

okay let's start with the cliche line - i'll let pictures do the talking!















more pictures in my facebook y'all!
and love, thank you so much okay?

syahril's in camp now doing guard duty.
mum's not in the mood to cook.
i havent done anything productive for the past three days.
on a brighter note, tomorrow's zoo day!

oh, and i did this quiz on Facebook:


What Band Instrument Are You?



You are a mellow person who is good at persuasive talking, but you can get easily angered when passionate about something. You have a wide, accommodating personality.

how true.

went out with syahril today.
guess what we watched?



super funny impak maksima! haha.
this is my first time watching jack neo's movie.
it left quite a good impression, thumbs up (:

then, lunch!



and then my camera battery died.
anti-climax!

then, he bought my very advanced birthday present.



i love, okay!
my fetish for watches getting out of hand already, heh.

and then it was dinner at my house.
my family loved him.

so overall?



i love my new gadget,
and i love syahril, hehe.

i meant to complete my lesson plan for this week.
yet another failed attempt.

instead, im chatting with nurul and linda.
check this out:



this made me laugh like crazy,
now i lost all the mood i can have to do up my lesson plan.

will make a mental note to show my students this video tomorrow!

yesterday was a weird day.
syahril fell asleep at home while waiting for me, and he didnt wake up even after 83 missed calls and 15 knocks on his front door.

thank you zila for "taking me in".
i havent thanked you enough! :)

anyway,
back to the story.

suddenly while i was falling asleep at starbucks rc's comfortable cushion seats,
i received a missed call from syahril, the tired ns boy.
i heard a flustered, exhausted, disgusting voice of an ns boy who just woke up from his long-deserving beauty sleep.

"sayang! im sorry, really! very-very sorry! i thought it was a 5-min sleep! tkde niat nk buat you cam gini!!

so the next few minutes, he was trying to convince me to forgive him.
he sounded very apologetic and sincere, actually.
but i was an angry person at the time what.
how can easily let people off like that, haha.

so we met eventually.
with me giving him a dressing-down on how evil he was in falling asleep when he was the one who insisted that i come over.

well, i was half-anticipating for this to happen,
because syahril just returned from route march on friday (hahahaha kesian!).
this was the first part of the day.

the second part...

...for those who think that my boyfriend is a shy person


he wanted two necks so badly. he deserves a double chin actually.


he looks like a friend of mine from swiss here.


gila.


like the swiss roll my mum loves to make.


pretend only.


pretend macho!


papaya.


syahril used to be fat until secondary four. this was how he looked like.


must try also.


if you guys watched beetlejuice, he looks like one of them.


horse-faced.


kuda mengamok.


tsk tsk.


haha.


he looks like joker from batman.


the only proper picture.




my jendol. must cut fringe yet again.


edward and bella. we name our shoes okay!


then we sat at the open area at vivo.

dinner was at macdonalds.
super filling, i tell you!
i finished my mega mac on my own yesterday. kebulur.

syahril, i forgive you la.
dont keep feeling guilty.
i still love you okay, heh.

worth waiting :)

yesterday evening, i went ballistic.

my two days' worth of hardwork gone in a flash - apparently due to "bad disk".
i have zero idea what triggered it,
but all i know is:

i just burned the midnight oil preparing this lesson plan,
and it just disappeared from my thumbdrive just like that.

no backup copy by the way.
so i have to start from scratch now.

in addition, i've also decided to finish up another lesson plan by end of this week.
two lesson plans in one week: not that feasible in my context.

syahril: this saturday, you still have a lot of things to do, right?
me: guess so. why?
syahril: on saturday, i'll bring my laptop to vivo, then we do your lesson plan together okay?
me: really? oh that'll be cool. thank you!
syahril: we'll skip the movies on saturday. we'll just lepak at starbucks to finish up your work, set?
me: *silence*

and im still in awe.
maybe to most of you, this hadnt meant anything.
but to me,
it meant a lot.

thank you, syahril (:

today i am superwoman.

i completed all the markings after school,
the primary 3, 4, 5 spelling lists,
the workplan for parents,
and prepared materials for tomorrow's lessons.

i feel so accomplished today :)

happy one month old, syahril.
haha.
i love you many many.

we planned to meet this sunday.
planned what to wear, where to go, what to eat, and what to do.

then my mum (half-parent, half-dictator haha) happily declared that the whole family's off to jb for the weekend.

hopes crushed. so today, before he goes back to camp at 10.30pm,
i told myself that by hook or by crook, must see him move.

MUST SEE HIM MOVE AND BERGERAK SOMEHOW.



now we have to meet next weekend, before he leaves for brunei.
and if you're wondering, he wont be back for my birthday next month.

APA NI!

something worth clicking on:



we were all so cute (:

and i was in the same class as fahmi? lol.

syahril, it really does feel good:

1) meeting you only on weekends,
2) forcing you to hear my ayam betina and ikan jantan jokes,
3) trying my best to pull you into footwear shops,
4) coaxing you to stop complaining about ns life,
5) planning our financials together (hahahah this one funny),
6) seeing you eat bubur ayam because your teeth hurts.

i still owe you 70 reasons why i love you.
i hope you can wait because:

im the form teacher of primary 3.5 now,
i teach primary 3, 4 and 5 malay,
im in the pupils' suggestions scheme and school editorial committee,
i have endless (surprise) meetings after school,
i teach tuition on tuesdays and fridays.

and it's only the second day of school.

it was crazy.

first stop was sb-rc, where we requested for zila to make drinks for us, heh.
for some reason, i told myself not to step into sb-r2 anymore (gasp!).

second stop was marina square to buy tickets for:



bedtime stories!!!
the movie was superb! hilariously funny.
and i love bugsy. look at his big, round eyes.

third stop was dinner.
we initially wanted to go to zamzam but decided it'd be too much of a hassle since he had to book in by 10pm.



















days with him around, are always perfect (:
(cepat sikit ORD hor!)