kepada semua muslimin dan muslimah,
salam lebaran (:







baby, limegreen this year? <3

i have no idea which word describes me best.
nonchalant, or ignorant?
along the lines, i guess.



so, the F1 race has started yesterday.
three weeks back, i remembered the SB partners making a big hoohaa about this supposedly superb event.
sam even said, "wah. can see the hot girls waving flags."

i think he was referring to this:



i can so imagine their orders.
a tall coffee frappucino light blended coffee.
or even a decaf tall half-pump sugar-free vanilla soy cappucino.

ok, im sidetracking.

anyway, i dont think i care so much about the F1 race.
i have this perception that i wont be affected by it, or get involved with anything associated with it.
so last night, after a wonderful dinner at mad jack and sinful ice cream at island creamery with diy, we decided to cab home.

which, sadly, to our dismay, none were available.
we walked from bukit timah to newton (yes! beat that on a heavy tummy),
and maybe we'll have an easier access to cabs there.

but no, we had to call-a-taxi.
which equaled to a whooping $3.50 extra on the meter.

and my taxi came ten minutes after diy's cab left.
i was quite pissed, but the driver was an unbelievably nice uncle, who explained to me why he was late.

easy reason: stuck in a jam, near the F1 venue.

he was also telling me that there were 70 people queuing up for cabs at millenia walk taxi stand,
and people were jammed up along the streets of orchard...

...all flagging down cabs (which were either taken or on call).

which only means one thing for me.
to just stay home and finish up my lesson plans (amira procrastinator!).

F1 cepatla abes. i dont like crowded places :(

at the end of the day,
the fiasco proved to be too much for my wishy-washy heart to handle.

however hard i attempt to brush off the fact that a leopard would never change its spots,
it's apparent that the metaphor, once bitten twice shy, would be a perfect slap to my face concurrently.

is it family inheritance? or is it just plain peer influences?

perhaps it's my meek personality that allows people to step on my head.
any worse, would mean spitting on my face.
maybe i've been too trusting when it comes to the matters of the heart.

i believe, for the umpteenth time, im a total flop in areas like these.

losing friends, losing very good friends, have become part of growing up in my life.
but losing someone i pour out my heart and soul to?
losing someone whom im willing to forsake my sleep/time for?

a wee bit too much, i got to admit.

as of yesterday, i've come to a conclusion that i need to get my life back on track, without him, of course.
i have students to worry about,
family commitments to take care of,
i dont even have time for myself nowadays.

surely a heartbreak would be a-okay for me to get through alone?

oh. maybe not. the wound is still fresh. ouchsakitnye.

for the thousandth time in more than two years, never will i ever turn back again.
never.

all of a sudden, i see myself as a procrastinator.
that's bad.

maybe it's the fasting month. or maybe, it's just me.

i promised to upload pictures of Puteri, my white cat with grey paws.
here there are :)

she sleeps with the fake cate in the living room:





she also sleeps with barney, the big purple dinosaur, in front of the television:



she sleeps on my comfy, comfy bed:



finale? she sleeps with her tongue out:







i told you my cat was DA BOMB, heh.

oleh kerana kawan baikku, noreena irwan telah menge-tag aku,
aku terpaksalah akur dengan kehendaknya itu.
tiba-tiba, aku terasa pula nak menge-blog dalam bahasa melayu.
mungkin kerana lagi lima minit, aku harus berlari ke kelas darjah duaku.
cis, murid-murid pasti lupa tentang kerja rumah yang telah diberikan semalam.

15 perkara tentang diriku ini:

1) aku suka gigit kuku. kalau kakiku bersih, memeng sudah tentu aku gigit kuku kaki juga. aku gigit kuku pada masa lapang, dan apabila aku takut dan risau
(untuk murid-muridku yang sedang membaca fakta nombor satu ini, sila senyap. jangan jadi mulut tempayan).

2) aku paling benci minum susu, tetapi gemar minum raspberry cappucino. ala-ala bahasa inggeris, "im more random that way!"

3) aku sayang pada kucingku yang bernama Puteri. ia tidur dengan lidahnya terkeluar. betul, aku tak tipu! esok aku akan muat-naikkan gambarnya.

4) aku paling suka menonton Cinta Fitri di saluran Sensasi. Entah mengapa, aku pun kurang pasti.

5) aku tidak makan mee kuning dan taugeh. jangan memaksaku, terima kasih.

6) aku gemar menonton CSI. namun, apabila ada adegan-adegan yang amat mengerikan, aku akan tutup mata dengan bantal busukku.

7) aku suka berbelanja barang-barang yang tidak diperlukan.

8) aku suka dengan makanan orang turki.

9) waktu aku berumur setahun, huruf 'w' disebut sebagai 'baddeyyuu'.

10) aku mula pergi ke sekolah tanpa dihantar ibu ketika berumur enam tahun.

11) aku selalu menggesek kakiku di permukaan katil sebelum tidur.

12) murid yang paling kecil dari segi saiz badan dalam kelas melayuku dapat menumbuk hidung rakannya sehingga berdarah. aku kagum.

13) aku ingin sekali membeli kasut baru. apakan daya, masa tidak mengizinkan.

14) aku hairan mengapa mereka mempelopori undang-undang 'no corporal punishment'. murid-murid zaman sekarang sering naikkan darahku.

15) aku rindu pada noreena.













aku berharap penggal empat akan berakhir dengan secepatnya.

im craving for:

chocolate-flavoured colourful icing cupcakes....

.... and dendeng from geylang.

how random can i be.

secret.

those were the times when life seemed so simple...

e.maths and a.maths mock exam every week until the O's.
taking 188 to bukit panjang govt high for higher malay every monday and wednesday.
band practices every tuesday after assembly.

and gombak stadium, haha.





back then, i often owed many teachers their homework.
they would constantly chase me for them, until to the point of time,
i was so tired of running away, i decided to just speed things up and copy from a fellow classmate.

so mean, right?

now, things are so different.
my students are the ones who owe me tons and tons of homework,
and they are the ones copying work from one another.

haha, kismet of karma, no?

suddenly i miss those carefree times.
and i bet most of the swissies miss those blithe moments too, heh.

"amira, my expiry date is in december. the store needs another shift manager. think about your future, plan your time properly. then you tell me what you want - i want you to be a part-time shift manager here."

i dont know what to say.

haha. *shakes head*

move on la.

just for you.