i miss my best friend.

and while clearing my cast-off emails,
i stumbled upon my best friend's email sent to me on April 6, 2005.

a freaking two years ago, but her words still affected me in a positive way.

assalamualaikum

apa kahabar kawan ku di jurong sana?ok,i know you'd be lying if you said you're fine because you're obviously not!as a friend i can't help reading depressing entries on your blog and not do anything.

are you still dwelling on your sister's disrespect towards you?or are there more complex matters? sometimes i wish there were 48 hours in a day so that i can study,chill with my friends and hang out with my loved ones like you,especially now that you need a crying shoulder.maybe sufie is a blessing in disguise.haha...at least she's a good listener and you girls click really well kan.

honestly sometimes i feel bad that i have to channel so much time into studying that i don't really have time to socialise.and hang out with my best girlfriends.because sometimes i feel lonely without my girlfriends.i miss you girls so badly.but we have to move on right.sigh.

but i do hope you understand ya.and PLEASE.if you need any shoulder to cry on AT ALL,please please please know that i'm just a phone call away.it doesnt matter even if i'm busy because sometimes i need a break as well.and of course most importantly i want you to feel better should you have any problems,okay?come on lah,we've known each other for years.

and wat's with the inferiority complex,girl?
you are definitely not:

1)loathed you are well loved.by your mommy,your daddy,your sisters.(yes including syazana too.she'll come to her senses one day lah,insyallah.and for goodness sake,you have me,sufie,luqman,syazrul..and the list goes on!!)
2)loser remember you got like near 40 points for L1R5 once during sec3?look where you are now.yalah,except maybe u never get your first choice.hehe.maybe that part the tak nasib baik kan,ape nak buat.
3)obnoxious haha.are you joking?you are one of the nicest,sweetest people i've ever met lah!!i'm the one who is obnoxious.
4)rejected another one.count how many friends you have.tak terkira kan?
5)shunned ok,rejected and shunned same meaning.
6)undesirable right................................remember momo,ariff,fahrul,zul
7)unwanted you are still wanted.
8)disesteemed this perhaps holds some truth.you're beautiful and smart.seriously.but you lack the confidence sometimes.dari sec 1 aku kenal kau,u seem to always self-administer codemnation when there's really nothing wrong with you! semua orang pun ade kecacatan. i have a lot of personal flaws too.come on girl,pluck up that confidence ok?you look really sweet when you smile,loads of guys can attest to that.all your loved ones would like to see your megawatt simle 24/7.come on,you have a beautiful face and soul already.accessorise them with a beautiful smile,okay?

if you're still feeling low,then i got a joke for you.


Pig In A Bar

A lady goes into a bar with her goose. Then the bartender comes up to her and says, ''Why did you have to bring the pig in with you?'' Then the lady answered, ''Excuse me, I think this is a goose.'' And the bartender says, ''Excuse me, I was talking to the goose.''


HAHAHAHAHA.sorry if it's not funny.

but i hope it can put a smile on your face!

so remember ok,i am here,sufie is here,syaz is here,your mommy is there beside you,we love you,dear.

i should be going and mug for my bio test.sedih kan?

good luck for nyp.i'm sure you'll have fun there.

take care of yourself okay?lift up that chin and wipe those tears.

lots of love,
nisa a.k.a master sergeant nisa a.k.a budak raffles aka the best in higher malay a.k.a yang dapat 7 points tu a.k.a YOUR BEST FRIEND.

thats my best friend for you.
our timing never fail to clash nowadays,
and we never get to meet as often like we did before.
i never told her i loved her.
and i never mentioned that i really do miss her.

absence makes the heart fonder?

the plan yester-evening was to accompany the boyfriend to his job interview at clarke quay.
but being me, i was late and he got upset.
so he went off without me and i had to degradedly find my way to clarke quay itself until he finished his darn interview.

we quarrelled a bit, but eventually both started laughing because we were too dog-tired to continue tongue-lashing.

(: we went to have dinner at swensens, shaiful's treat for boyfriend's birthday,
and cabbed home tickled pink.

i love you.