my sweaty palms.

2009-07-17T10:50:00.002+08:00

Too much of something is bad enough
But something's coming over me to make me wonder
Too much of nothing is just as tough
I need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied

Too much of nothing so why don't we give it a try
Too much of something we're gonna be living a lie

school's starting soon.
time to place my priorities right.

i dont wanna be anybody's priority anymore.

2009-07-16T12:23:00.002+08:00

amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.
amira hates one word text messages.

amira hates one word text messages without any punctuation marks at the end.

2009-07-14T08:45:00.002+08:00

remind me never to be pissed again at anything and then making it known to my boyfriend because i wouldnt want him to suddenly appear at my void deck at 12.30 in the morning just to make sure i was feeling alright.

mira, jgn perangai please!

2009-07-13T19:45:00.002+08:00

tadi mario tak hadir ke sekolah.
katanya, "hidung saya berdarah. awak tolong saya ambil alih kelas darjah empat saya."
oleh kerana dia tua daripada aku 26 tahun, aku akur dengan permintaannya.

aku tak buat sembarang kerja pun tadi di sekolah.
mentang-mentang si mario tak datang, guru-guru bahasa melayu semua hooray-hooray.
aku hanya sempat masukkan gambar-gambar dari cd ke dalam harddrive aku.
sepanjang lima jam di sekolah, aku sibuk facebooking dan bloghopping.
lagi sikit aku nk online shopping tapi aku kawal nafsu aku.

haha.

tepat pada jam 1.30 petang selepas loceng sekolah berbunyi, aku dan aisyah keluar dari sekolah seperti orang tak bersalah.
memang tak salah pun.
kalau dah takde kerja di sekolah, buat apa nk duduk lama-lama, betul tak?

aku teringin nak makan sushi.
dengan semangat kental dan berkobar-kobar, aku dan aisyah pun angkat kaki ke clementi.
nama pusat beli-belah yang baharu dinamakan city vibe.

seolah-olah ianya sebuah pusat beli-belah di chinatown.

setelah aku menyental perut dengan sushi-sushi yang sewaktu dengannya, aku pun jalan-jalan sekejap di clementi.
tak banyak benda yang menarik perhatianku, alhamdulillah.
selamat sikit duit aku yang ada dalam bank.

aku pun berikhtiar untuk membeli telefon rumah cordless.
telefon yang ada di rumahku sekarang mintak kena terajang saje.
apa gunanya kalau ada line telefon tapi tak boleh digunakan?
kesian matair aku nye phone bill.
setiap hari call aku macam dier ada free outgoing gitu.

balik kepada topik aku hari ini.

aku dengan tiba-tiba pissed sendiri kat boon lay station.
semua orang kanchiong spider, macamlah last bas pukul 5.30pm.
aku terutamanya sangat marah dengan seorang budak cina yang cuba untuk menjadi spiderman ketika aku sedang berjalan di belakangnya.
dah gitu takpe, depannya ada seorang ahpek tua yang sedang menolak troli penuh dengan kotak.

aku bukannya risaukan budak cina tu tau.
bayangkan kalau ahpek tua tu yang terjatuh ke, kotak terhempap dier ke.
kan kesian?

budak cina yang nak jadi spiderman tu ter'eye contact' dengan aku.
aku memberikannya jelingan tajam.
secara tiba-tiba dia pun menukar menjadi manusia biasa.
tau pun takut eh kau.

sampai ke rumah aku pissed gila.
nak tido pun tak boleh.
aku pissed jugak sebab batam trip tak jadi.
susah payah je aku countdown untuk ke batam, in the end tak jadi.

moe ni pun satu.
nak sign agreement, kena clash dengan batam trip aku ke?

aku sungguh marah.

dan kepada matair aku yang ingat aku upload gambar kita dua di facebook,
sorry brother.
gambar-gambar terakhir yang aku muatnaikkan ialah gambar pesta di r2.
gambar kita satu haprak pun takde, so takyah risau.
satu starbucks tak tau tentang hubungan kita.

oleh kerana aku pissed,
aku akan makan jemput-jemput pisang yang mak aku buat petang tadi.
nak tau anehnya?

aku paling benci buah pisang.

2009-07-12T22:30:00.002+08:00

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.
The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her.

got such guys now mehz?

2009-07-08T08:45:00.002+08:00

yesterday while i was excitingly indulged in reading http://minahspeak.livejournal.com,
i received a call from love.
it was 6pm, so confirm chopchop he wasnt working yesterday.
i didnt even know he was having off from work, heh.

anyway,

love: hello? where are you?
me: at home lor, where else?
love: wanna go for dinner?

but i heard, "have you had dinner?" which was by far the most common question during our phone conversations most of the time.

me: no ah, havent eaten yet.
love: oi. im asking you, wanna go have dinner or not? im off today.

haha. org dh ajak mkn, tkkan nk reject!
since our properly planned date was supposed to be on thursday, i guess it wouldnt be of much harm la kan meeting for last minute dinner.

but i was wrong - i was jinxed.

we decided on mr teh tarik, the one located at jurong west street 42.
upon reaching, i had this sudden crave for chicken porridge.
the last time i ate there with my parents, the chicken porridge tasted so damn good.
and iced teh tarik is always the norm for me there.

but.

love: *signaling to me from far like dont know what* bubur ayam dabes!
me: HUH! why today!

i was angry_girldotblogspotdotcom. but never mind.
settled for tissue prata instead.

then love bought drinks.
he came with a teh gajah, and a HOT teh tarik.

me: *kening up up* i wanted iced teh tarik kan!
love: erm. erm. dabes!

YOU WANNA TIPU SOMEONE WHO HAS LIVED IN JURONG FOR THE WHOLE OF HER LIFE KE BROTHER!

me: *disbelief look* you sure?
love: okay la, actually i forgot the "iced" in front of the teh tarik.

wah. angry tahap maksima.
if his bike was there, i would scratch hor!

so anyway, after dinner, i dragged him to the drinks stall to show him that iced teh tarik existed afterall.
haha, perangai.

on the way to my house, we walked past the multi-storey carpark.
and i've got a bad habit of twisting my own tongue and make words sound ridiculous.

"yang, your pike (!!!!) over there?"

PIKE KAPER MIRA!
hahaha. i mixed the word park and bike together.

when both of us already reached home,
he sent me a message:

peter piper pick a piper, peter pike his pike at the carpike

wah wah wah. i didnt make fun of him when he mispronounced coffee grind as coffee crank.

2009-07-06T18:02:00.001+08:00

click on this, look at #6.

:)

2009-07-05T22:19:00.002+08:00

i just whispered "f you" to my laptop, because imeem.com refused to load.
not like it's my laptop's fault but you know, when you feel irritated, everything else around you seem to be at fault.

they always say a hungry person is an angry person, right?
but im not hungry... so how can i be angry?

i should just go to sleep to appease my anger.
good night worldwideweb.

2009-07-04T18:48:00.003+08:00

im pissed off.

where the f is my black apron and my coffee passports, you fat butcher?

2009-06-29T13:59:00.003+08:00

yesterday was my very first shift as an rc partner.

this was only 1/3 of the crowd yesterday.
but the shift was alright.
partners were awesome and welcoming, haha.
it was super tiring though to work there.

after work, waited for love to finish his shift.
we headed down to park his bike at esplanade before proceeding to marina square to watch transformers.

these producers/directors are so smart.
in the midst of maybe thousands of robots fighting,
suddenly they did a close-up on megan fox running with her sexy boobs almost pouring out from her bra (if she's wearing any).
very good strategy there.
overall, the movie was alright only.
it didnt leave an impact on me like how night at the museum did.
love and i were confused in at different parts of the movie.
chey. i thought he understood the whole movie.
OKAY FINE. the movie sucked, but megan fox was god damn hot.

love was tired, i know.
but it was really kind of him to accompany me yesterday (although we quarrelled about cranberry walnut toast during work when it was slamming with customers).
oh well, we'd better spend quality time before my school starts, and before he starts work at cathay.

oh gosh. i sound so sad.

2009-06-27T16:27:00.002+08:00

love: are you thinking what im thinking, B1?

mira: i think im not, B2.

love: aiya. never mind la. i'll do my beach patrol alone.

haha.

2009-06-25T13:38:00.002+08:00

from weekly world news:

LOS ANGELES, CA – The internet has been abuzz since this Sunday’s Golden Globes ceremony, where Megan Fox jokingly remarked that she looked like a man.

When interviewed on the red carpet, she said “I look like Alan Alda in drag. I’m a tranny. I’m a man.”

At the time, reporters passed it off as a jovial attempt to cover for her nerves.

However, today she has cleared the air and officially reported: she’s really a man.

Megan Fox was born Mitchell Reed Fox in Rockwood, Tennessee. From an early age, Mitchell showed an interest in both performing and women’s clothing. When having a preacher lay hands on him did not ‘cure’ him of these interests, his parents simply put him on the pageant circuit.

By the age of 13, Mitchell had already started a career as a female child performer called ‘Megan Fox’. Making her debut on an Olsen Twins straight-to-video release, the twins have kept his secret all this time.

As a sweet 16 present, Fox’s parents offered him sexual reassignment surgery, which, given their child’s career, they’d hoped to write off as a business expense. Unfortunately laws prohibit such surgery to be done to minors.

Since then Megan has been working non-stop, and been included on many Hottest Women lists in publications around the world.

Megan, as she goes by now exclusively, also noted this Sunday how much she wants Salma Hayek’s figure. She has even scheduled surgery later this month to get it. After the two met in New York this week, Hayek offered to have a cast made of her bust so doctors can match them exactly on Megan Fox’s chest.

The internet is already speculating whether this news will be worked into the plot of the upcoming Transformers sequel.

i feel damn demoralised.
if a 'man' can look that hot, then why am i here looking like a mother of four kids?

and according to din:

what the hell sia! imagine the guys that have masturbated for her then finds out she's a man! wah, luckily i havent masturbated for her shiol.

i hope it's just rumours.
she's so hot.

2009-06-24T12:19:00.002+08:00

yesterday was sb-r2's last store outing to sentosa.
but i cant update about it now - debbie hasnt passed me the pictures yet.
yours truly forgot to bring camera, and of course, forgot the chilli sauce for the foodies.

whats new, you're talking about mira seh.

anyway,
all that aside, love bought me something on monday while i was busy at camp, and he was at orchard with his friend.

i already liked the paper bag when he took it out from his bag.

mira: eh sayang! this one looks like the doorgifts kat malay weddings la!
him: a'ah. there's hard-boiled egg for you inside (HAHA!)

a bracelet! and not only that okay....

... it has my name engraved on it!

haha thank you love!
although we might have to resort to sneaking into the movie theatre to watch transformers 2 because you're broke, it's alright!
i still love you! we can sit outside the theatre and just hear the bombastic sound effects okay?

you know ah, sometimes i really amaze myself.
i blog about him in almost every single entry, like a 14-year old who just fell in love with a 16-year old boy.

more about sentosa soon, and i hope school will close for another week.
no, make it two weeks.

2009-06-22T21:23:00.002+08:00

it just sucks to think about sb-r2 with no lights,
verismo and bunn shuttle switched off,
dishwasher and pastry case left unattended.

yesterday, sb-r2 closed for good.
i was contemplating whether to make a trip down last night - maybe to make my last drink or something.
but then i found it ridiculous because i can still make my favourtite drink at sb-rc later on.
love was adamant about me coming, assuring me that he'll send me home and stuff.
i bet he knows perfectly that by me coming, both of us might end up drinking teh gajah at ktm and reach home at 5am or something.
that musnt be the case because i have to report to school at 7.15am for the primary five camp (bummer! more about this next time!).

so this morning, i woke up thinking, "okay. r2's already closed."
i have to make a mental note out of this just in case i blindly make my way to r2 after school or something.
im kental that way.

oh man. bye r2, hello rc.

2009-06-21T15:41:00.002+08:00

so yesterday was totally unplanned.

on friday night, love called me and we were crapping so much on the phone from 3am to 7am!
he was like, "baby, tomorrow i nk amek mc ah. weekend asyik burn je!"

OKAY IF ANY OF THE R2 MANAGERS ARE READING THIS, MATI AKU.

haha so he got his long-anticipated mc, and we decided to go to jb citysquare!
i was excited ah like always.
although i have a house in jb and all, i've never stepped into citysqaure at all!
mira kental.
dinner was at swensens, and love was unhappy that the pizza was so so small.
if we had known, we'd have eaten at pizza hut or something.
after that very anti-climax.

"we go back singapore ah. we find nice spot to chill."

haha perangai seh dua budak ni.

so once we reached singapore, we started brainstorming on where to chill.
it was already 9pm, mind you!
to me ah, in singapore the only places that operate 24 hours are ntuc extra hypermart at jp, starbucks raffles city and mustafa centre.

all not to our liking.

so he very smart ah.
we went to liang court starbucks which closes at 12am.
then we perangai again.
we sat at liang court starbucks until 12.30am.
i think the baristas must be cursing us under their breaths. so exciting.
we webcamed with nurul, gossiped about other people like nobody's business.

who's the bitchy one here eh love?

after that, perangai again!
we walked to fort canning.
both of us super adventurous, i tell you!
carried me on his back up the stairs la, running up the thousand flights of stairs la, reading the map in the dark la, pure nonsense!
when we found the pull-up bars, we got excited for no reason!

if you realise ah, it was already 1am, still no pictures taken.

then we lost interest in fort canning.
so we went to marina barrage! my first time, woohoo!
at 1.30am, the rooftop had many people!
wah, singaporeans sure know how to enjoy their saturday nights.

then at 3am, someone decided to take pictures ah.
like hello? muke very basi and disgusting, then you wanna take pictures?

so anyway.

his face needs to be slapped.
he only powernapped for like 2 hours? haha.

wah by this time, i damn irritated already.
"WHY YOUR FACE LIKE THAT AH WHEN WE TAKE PICTURES!"

then when peoplesmile widely for the camera already,
my hand decided that it was too short to capture both of our faces together.
give up!

our favourite shoes. haha.

he has that exact same face when he's flirting with the pretty female customers. haha.

then there were three guys giving out free ice creams! at 4am!

then love super excited. must smoke and eat free ice cream at the same time.

we left marina barrage at 5am.
luckily when i reached home, everyone was asleep, heh.

im enjoying my june holidays so much (:

2009-06-19T23:37:00.004+08:00

at the end of the day, good memories and good times spent together will always be etched in our hearts and minds.

today was sb-r2's customers' appreciation party.
but i know partners came just to bond with one another before we get separated to different stores.

i took almost 200 pictures, but sorry ah. only a few significant ones shall make it to my blog (:

more pictures on facebook (:

i really cant believe that r2 is closing down in two days.
nightmare?

and im sure, the rest of the partners feel the same way too.

2009-06-18T11:43:00.003+08:00

love and i were unhappy about the fact that we're sent to sb-rc from next week onwards.
i'd really prefer it if one of us gets sent to bugis instead.
because we dont want to see each other at work.
according to him, absence makes the heart go fonder, heh.
and with graveyard shifts and all, and school starting soon for me, HOW TO HAVE OUR WEEKLY MEETUPS?

oh gosh, can you not freak me out!

2009-06-15T12:24:00.002+08:00

today i woke up and i went,

"shit. r2's closing down in six days."

so this will be an emotional entry.
should there be any r2 partners reading this, get ready tissue papers okay.

my journey in starbucks started officially on 14th february 2008.
while others were busy holding flowers at orchard road with their respective beaus,
i was diligently attending training at the commonwealth headquarters.
it was just pure coincidence trying out for starbucks.
i swear i was set on applying for coffeebean at kallang leisure park.
interview with the coffeebean manager was already set, but she bloody was on having her off day on my interview date.
so took the bus, and coincidentally alighted opposite sb-r2.

i never knew applying for a part-time job there changed my life.

samuel hired me on the spot.
an assistant store manager at that point of time, he was also keen on being my learning coach.
i really respected him as one, although there might be ups and downs along the way.
and thanks to him too, i had the opportunity to be a learning coach and a coffeemaster - all within six months being a barista.

and then there's noreena.
she was the first manager i worked with after being a certified barista who just clocked in sixty hours of training.
and from there, a beautiful friendship started.
i really look up to her as a good friend and a commendable manager.
we might not be meeting up as often due to her graveyard shifts at rc, but i still love her (:

kenneth was posted to my store as store manager three months after me.
it was really awkward at first working with him because he was all perky and chirpy.
and not to mention flirty with the pretty female customers too.
but he was awesome as a store manager, chinchai in a good way.
i never knew how close we were until that very day when he sat down with me and started to tell me his family problems with his wife.
a 39-year old confiding in a 21-year old!

my first learner was shammy.
shammy has practically been there for me.
spending a lot of time together in store really bonded us two together.
we have a lot of common friends which we laugh about,
and i was really touched by her willingness to lend me her listening ears when i had problems with rasyid back then.
it was really hard committing my time to train in starbucks but having problems with my relationship but shammy made it all easy (:

my next two learners were zack and wilson.
zack might have left starbucks to pursue a part-time career in selling bubble tea at tampines but the memories we have of each other are still etched in my mind.
wilson, the sweeter version of zack, was always there to offer me advice like,
"WHY MUST YOU GO BUY IPOD TOUCH FOR HIM? WORTH IT MEH??"
it was the nitty gritty details that made me remember him.

next is linda.
linda is actually a partner of wilkie edge,
and i was entrusted by samuel to train her to be a powerful barista.
she is the most bimbotic and most blur learner i can ever have!
even until now, although we are working in different stores, we still made it a point to drop by each other's stores.
she will be one of those learners i will always remember. always remember.

oh, speaking of which, she dropped by r2 that day with her boyfriend.

she loves to sit at the dustbin. dont know why.

this one best. my photography skill getting better, haha.

if anyone's wondering, the china auntie cut my hair wrongly. hence the china bangs.

sexy hor linda? but the brain a bit slow in functioning, HAHA.

suddenly my eyes turned sleepy.

wah very exciting. i got to carry hot girl on my back. woooo.

this is suffiy. he's always calling out quiche to me everytime im doing bar.

suffiy, shammy, mira. (:

i have many other partners i have to celebrate success with, but im confident they dont read my blog (i bet they dont even know i have a blog!).
so i'll end off with khairi.

khairi joined starbucks as a full-time barista in november.
i swear i only heard his name back then but never knew who he was.
he was down with chicken pox in december and it was only towards the end of the year that i got a chance to work with him.
this guy was detested when he first started.
so action! dont want talk to people, always a loner.
but im glad he opened up in due time, and started to send ferrero rocher to my house by post (:
hahaha. love you so much, chicken!

tsk. i think im tearing now.
r2, i dont think i'll be able to find another store like this.

2009-06-12T11:50:00.002+08:00

my holidays have been spent to the fullest so far.
apart from starbucks twice every week, and meeting love on our common off days,
i've been staying home - catching up with mum and doing a lot of reading.

tell me, what could have been better?

last thursday was sb-r2's last store meeting.
yes, our store is closing down.
right now im contemplating whwther to quit for good, or let myself be posted to sb-rc.
well, i thought the store meeting was going to be an emotional one.
but everyone was so jovial and hopeful that we would be sent to sb-ion when ion orchard opens.

no harm in hoping a bit hor?

after store meeting, love brought me to ktm for dinner.
he was persistent in showing me what teh gajah looks like.
i havent heard of teh gajah, seriously.
but my curiousity died down after knowing that it's actually this:

yek eleh. its only normal teh in a bigger plastic cup.
haha.
after dinner, we went to labrador park!

when he was looking at the street directory, he was like, "have you been to labrador park before?"

of course i said no. i had no recollections of that place either.
but when we arrived....

..."EH! this was where i went to back then in sec two! for TAF club!"
sometimes, i really scare myself, haha.

labrador park is so pretty at night.
there were these group of school campers and a group of ahpeks and nyonyas having their karaoke session there.
really, with microphones and amplifiers complete.
but i didnt take their pictures. later kena sue.

and close to 1am, we freaking saw two mats with helmets on their heads, looking for a good spot to fish.
to fish. at 1am.

okay, asalkan they bahagia lor!

and yesterday, work ended at 5pm.
love waited for me at cityhall mrt station.
proceeded to the bike workshop at eunos and off we vroom-ed to east coast food centre.
how come i dont recall eating there before!

no pictures. mira so poor. handphone battery dying, camera not repaired yet.

then sat at waterbreaker. where i couldnt see anything even with my spectacles on.
dasar rabun malam.
we would have stayed longer if not for cockroaches landing on his bag and my shoes.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeek!

then off to mount faber park (:

the view was just... breathtakingly beautiful.
i can never thank him enough for bringing me to these wonderful places.
but of course, the company has to be superb la.

thank you, love <3

2009-06-10T19:00:00.002+08:00

herman and i are teachers in the making, where both of us feel that we should be role models to the kids in school; but we shouldnt avoid going crazy once we step out of school at 5 or 6 in the afternoon.

today i needed his help.

me: herman, i need your help. but promise eh its between you and i only okay!

herman: yes ma'am. mario (my senior teacher) wont noe. c'mon, i kept de secret abt de desperate need for pads right?

in case you're wondering, just few months back, i had asked him to get hold of a few pads for me because i was having my mensus - heavy flow!
well, he did eventually. pads all wrapped up in a used envelope found in the general office.

herman, i just want you to know, that you're such a great friend. awwwww.

love, i miss you a lot. can we meet again soon? (:

2009-06-06T19:46:00.002+08:00

i think my jaw dropped while watching this:

look at the abs!
hot stuff gila!

2009-06-01T10:29:00.003+08:00

BATAM WAS AWESOME!

these were the little things that made the batam trip super memorable:

1) herman and aisyah trying their best to stop me from vomitting at the ferry.

2) the tour guide's atrocious english (but good knowledge on the island, i must say!).

3) fighting with irfah and herman for aisyah's nintendo ds.

4) watching night at the museum 2 for only Rp 25000 (thats freaking $3+!).

5) herman sleeping at my leg (i should have kicked him off the bed lor!).

6) the superb things i spent with only Rp 700000 (S$100 only okay!).

7) bringing hakimbo's fisheye lomo camera.

8) the company was just.... great.

for the first time, i realised i was at the right place with the right people.
pictures coming right up once aisyah, irfah and herman uploads them! (:

2009-05-28T20:32:00.002+08:00

it has been a daily routine, where at 1.30pm when the bell rings,
students (and teachers) rush out of the classrooms.
students will either make their way to the canteen or the school bus bay, and teachers will glide their way to the staff room to meet long lost colleagues that they havent met for the past two hours.

and the thought-sharing session starts.

herman and i teach the same primary 4 class.
he teaches maths and english while i teach malay.
so we tell each other stories on the same batch of students.

a few days back, the primary 4 and 5 classes had their camp briefing in the hall.
they were elated over the camp - sleepovers, night walks and of course, the campfire night.

have you guys been on a camp?
where there'll be a big campfire in the middle and campers start to hold hand and sing camp songs?

for those who havent, here's a rough idea of how a campfire is supposed to look like:

yes, big BIIIIGGGGGGG fire.
during the briefing, the kiddos were reminded that it will not be some small-barbeque-by-the-beach-fire where you can panggang your sausages and prawns.

and then this kid, called ramdhan, asked herman an interesting question.

"mr herman ah? i can bring my own marshmallows or not?"

i can visualise herman putting ramdhan through a stick like the picture aforementioned.

and i feel like squeezing ramdhan until his jucies come out. so cute la he.

2009-05-27T22:25:00.003+08:00

18 May 2009

Index No: 61

Nur Amira Aminnudin
Blk _____
Jurong West Street 73
Singapore __________

NRIC No: S880________

This is to inform you that you have met the minimum requirements of the Malay Entrance Proficiency Test conducted by the RELC Examinations Bureau in full, you have passed the EPT. Validity of results: 4 years

ternyata Bahasa Melayu saya belum karat lagi (:

2009-05-25T20:06:00.002+08:00

my student's dad passed away this morning.
he was only 37, the sole breadwinner of the family,
and left behind a caring wife and two young kids.

i dont know why i was tearing,
and i dont know why i was affected so much by the news.

maybe it's because, my student is only 9.

2009-05-21T21:32:00.002+08:00

To: all_corporation_pri@moe.edu.sg

Dear all,

Attached is the itinerary for the Batam trip and the list of the things which you have to bring. I have attached a staff list beside the attendance book which you have to indicate if you are taking the transport from CPS to Harbourfront on 30 May 2009 at 7.30am. If you are not taking the transport, please be punctual and reach Harbourfront by 8am sharp. Thank you.

Regards,
Ms Siah & SWC (2009)

then dlm hati i was thinking, "wah! ni dh mcm school camp dulu! got list of things to bring!"

so i excitedly opened the attachment.

Corporation Primary School
Batam Trip
30 May 2009- 31 May 2009

Things to Bring:
•Thermometer
•Personal Medication
•Passport

Thank you.

By,
SWC (2009)

yek eleh! i thought they were gonna ask us to bring two packs of disposable underwear, or maybe a black shirt or something, just in case there'll be water bomb games.

and this is where we'll be staying.
and me being a singaporean, i actually googled for reviews on the hotel.

golden view hotel: "a four-star hotel with six-star service!"

it'd better be good. i've paid $30 for the trip okay!
the itinerary was attached together.
sounds and looks really promising.
being the spendthrift that i am (sadly!), im not sure whether 711,542.80 IDR is enough.
hakimbo, i need your help on this?

i've not had a proper outing for the longest time, in my humble opinion.
i even have nightmares about school and my students nowadays.
with parent-teacher meeting scheduled this week, and the report book-handling due next monday,
i just wish that my observation would end soon, and then the beginning teachers from NIE are able to take over my classes.

like really, i dont mind doing relief for teachers who are FREQUENTLY absent.
tsk. not only is the absenteeism rate for students is high. same goes for the teachers too.
remind me not to be posted back to this school ever again. but its too early to even say anything, heh.

i'll end off with this:

"cikgu, seluar dalam dgn pampers kata seerti tk?"

2009-05-19T22:44:00.002+08:00

the perks of being a teacher keeps me going.

today i gave my primary threes groupwork activities.
in groups of 9, they're supposed to come up with as many pairs of antonyms within fifteen minutes.
no copying, no questions to be asked.

so while i was "doing my rounds", this small boy, almost skin-and-bones, i think, came up to me enthusiastically (kumpulan yang menang akan mendapat pelekat bintang tau!).

"cikgu, aircon dengan kipas kata berlawan tk?"
(teacher, are aircon and fan antonyms?)

i gave him a glare and he sighed.

"nmpk sah tk. penat seh saya fikir!"
(obviously not. im exhausted thinking abt it!)

few minutes after that,
he came up to me again.

"cikgu! telinga dgn telinga gajah kata berlawan tk?"
(teacher, are ears and elephant ears antonyms?)

i gave him the glare again, but this time, it was his groupmates who answered him,
"jgn jadi bodoh la! sejak bila cikgu ajar kita telinga dgn telinga gajah!"
(dont be stupid la! since when did teacher teach us that!)

finally one minute before i ended the activity,
"CIKGU! jam dgn ban kata berlawan tk!" and he dashed his question with a cheeky grin.

aku campak jamban nanti aru kau tau eh, budak kecik.

2009-05-12T21:38:00.004+08:00

i sprang out of bed, greeted the chirping of the birds with a positive note.
my face still carved a subtle smile although i had to literally drag my big bag of exam papers, with almost 2kg of weight to boot.

i walked to school even though i was perspiring my ass off.

i was excited - for my 9 and 10-year olds,
who were anticipating their exam results today.

a bit of background information:
this batch of kids im teaching, never had a solid foundation in malay.
speaking was never a problem, but writing proved to be a living challenge.

and this, i have to admit, was (and still is) a culture shock to me.

i made it through my primary and secondary school days surrounded with friends with powerful grasps of the mother tongue language (read: swissies, jypians).
everything was a competition. one mark less than the partner sitting next to you would mean two periods of staring at each other's papers - as if staring can change anything.

but it's the competition that bonded us together and made us succeed in the language.
true, no?

for my kids, getting a 25/50 for the main component of the paper deserved a big pat on the back.
initially i was angry - angry that they aimed so low to be happy about their minimal results.

but humans err.
as i spent more time with my students, i realised their problems and their easily-contented attitude.

i learn from them, as much as they learn from what i teach.

okay, i've digressed. back to the topic!

this morning, i stood in front of the class, studying each and every one of their faces while i announced their results.
quite a few improved and the glee on their faces were apparent.
this particular student of mine (name withheld as he's minor) got a 26/50 for the main paper.
the paper was average, not too difficult nor too easy.

he couldnt stop smiling the whole time i was in class.
i was curious so i walked over to his vandalised (kurang asam btol!) desk and asked,

"awak suka dapat 26? ni pertama kali awak lulus?"
(are you happy with your results? is this the first time you passed?)

he nodded his head profusely and shone me his glistening smile.

"cikgu, ni first time dlm hidup saya, saya pass subject. thank you."

i smiled and turned behind. i was tearing. kental ah mira sikit2 nk nangis.
and thank god, the bell rang.
i sped out of class with tears streaming down my fat cheeks.

no, not that i wanna claim credit for my students' success or anything,
but i never knew someone who took 26/50 to be a milestone in their academic life.

this, convinced me to stay as a teacher.
eh no. an educator.

2009-05-06T21:37:00.002+08:00

the primary five kids were asked to write a narrative story on "rojak" during the may day weekend.

im not even teaching them but i was asked to mark the compositions?
(this one i'll mengadu nasib next time!)

anyway, marking their compositions cracked me up totally.
this kid, classic!
he wrote about going to Geylang to shop with the family, eat rojak together (all the boring details), tummyache, sent to hospital because of food poisoning, last paragraph.....

....."saya sedih kerana dijangkiti flu babi."

pe kena mengena flu babi ngan rojak ni?

this girl, she started her composition promisingly, armed with powerful vocabulary and what-nots,
sekali...

... rojak yang zalim.

so out of the blue! jahat btol rojak tu agaknye!

okay done. students sitting for exams but i feel lethargic.
best, sleep yok!

2009-05-04T12:08:00.001+08:00

movie: $16

aimless window-shopping: $0

dinner: $17.80

time spent: priceless

love love.

2009-04-30T09:02:00.000+08:00

the weather today is very bad.

same as my mood too.

2009-04-24T22:33:00.002+08:00

tgif.
i've decided to chuck away all the lesson plans and markings tonight.

della and i were chatting on msn - about our teaching stints and all.
we are always fond of giving each other virtual massages so tonight wasnt an exception.

so we were pretending that i was messaging the lower-half of her body (yeah, freak, i know!),
when suddenly, she "made" a 'PROOOOOOOT' sound, indicating that she was farting.

farting = kentot.

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
hahahaha
siak jee
pasal kentut pun kawin
kite kawin bukan nk kentut ngan each other!
bayangkn eh kau carik suami menggunekan kentut
hahahaha

donna dakota. says:
mana tau
haha

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
gi dating
pastu kau kentut ahh

donna dakota. says:
aku jln sblh lelaki handsome,
aku kentot
then aku wink
hahahahah!

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
kalau die tk nk kau lagi.. tk bleh jadi kawin
HAHAH
baik kape!!
baik sak pick up
lelaki nampak kau... pastu die kentut kt kau

donna dakota. says:
mesti dier teruja
dier ikot aku alek

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
pastu die ckp... you smell lovely

donna dakota. says:
THATS A FREAK SAK
aku lari

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
hahahah
aku nk cobe pikat matair aku mcm gitu ah
hahahahahahaha
kentut kt die pastu wink

donna dakota. says:
kau try ah
kalau satu hari dier dh tk contact kau agi,
jgn salahkan aku

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
make sure kene ade bunyi tau
lagi kuat, lagi bagus daya tarikannye

donna dakota. says:
pastu mesti de echo
like the small small sounds after the main kentut
cam terkencit!

donna dakota. says:
eh babi sak
aku ketawe sorg2 skrg

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
perangai kentut sak kau

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
hahahahaha
siak je
harapkan innocent jee
cikgu lahh
tapi perangaii kentut
kau cobe at kt anak murid kau
die buat bising... kau kentut kt die sikit

donna dakota. says:
mesti dier diam
diam sampai end of yr exams!
eh kalau gitu aku nk kentot at ALL OF MY STUDENTS

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
sekali buat exams dpt a

donna dakota. says:
psl bau kentot aku

donna dakota. says:
k set
monday aku discuss ngan teachers sume
THEN SUME ADOPT THAT METHOD
mana2 aku jln,
cikgu2 sume kentot

c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
hahahahah
nampak budak.. prooot.. ah ambek kau

[c=4]@[/c][c=3]>--[/c] [c=10]Dix & Della Beckham[/c=13] [c=4]<3[/c] says:
hhahaahah
pastu kau ajar kt budak2 kau
aku rase kn
cikgu yg ajar health education pun nk kene adopt this new method
buat lagu kentut kasi dorang nyanyi

donna dakota. says:
eh sume tkya greet cikgu ah
diorg kentot
hahahhaa
cikgu masok sume kentot

i cant believe i just blogged about farting.
i love this girl. we'll entertain each other like nobody's business.

well, im meeting my rifleman tomorrow :)

2009-04-21T12:26:00.002+08:00

my current addiction before america's next top model starts at 11pm on mondays:

paris hilton's my new bff.
quite comical, actually.
a hinge of bitchiness apparent during the show.

bff or what!

2009-04-20T11:45:00.003+08:00

thirty minutes more to my primary four class.

today i felt relaxed.
not a surge of anxiety or lethargy,
frequency of yawns was minimised.

i still have two weeks' worth of lesson plans left to be done,
collation of homework to be sent to my student who's currently in France (damn lucky, that guy!),
and not to mention, the coloured cut-outs for Civic and Moral Education.

the last point made me chuckle.

most of my students self-proclaim themselves as "budak 369" and even gave themselves weird gangster names to be called outside school (read: black jack/starboy) - which in my humble opinion, will be the names tattooed on their arms in seven years' time (hopefully not!).

so Civic and Moral Education is a bore to them,
let alone doing coloured cut-outs and decorating them with shiny glitter pens.

so it'll be batam end of may with the staff of corporation primary school,
and bangkok (insyaallah!) in june with baby_garang and di_kecik.

angel_mira still has twenty more minutes to her primary four class.

2009-04-14T20:30:00.002+08:00

my malay ept test was today.
the composition topic i had to write just now was:

Anak Melayu generasi sekarang kurang menghayati nilai dan budaya Melayu. Nyatakan sebab-sebabnya dan pendekatan yang harus diambil untuk memastikan agar budaya Melayu dapat dilestarikan.

and the conversation topic was:

Fenomena 'alam tanpa sempadan' semakin pesat berkembang pada masa sekarang. Berikan pandangan anda tentang mengapa fenomena sedemikian telah berlaku.

and halfway through the paper, both my hands and mouth turned bloody.
bloody, i mean it.
i think my nose bled.
but all i knew was, i had to go to the toilet because i'll faint if i smell blood.

gila freaky. the guy beside me (his name was raja nazruldin) freaked out for five seconds, i think.

to diyana, here's my new cat:

this gorgeous white persian's named fitri!
i really have to thank creamcheese for this cat :)

this was what i bought for hakimbo, sempena hari jadinya bulan hadapan.

super cool.
once i've sent my fujipix camera for repair, im planning to get the above, the paul smith edition.

woohoo!

2009-04-13T19:00:00.002+08:00

danish: CIKGU!!!!!!!! dier tendang buah pleh (how on earth do you spell it out man?) saya!!!!!!!!

cikgu mira (with blank look): awak beritahu saya, nk saya uat aper?

this has got to be one of my unsympathetic moments.

2009-04-02T18:14:00.001+08:00

suddenly i miss someone.

i miss someone who likes superman,
and in my humble opinion,
who looks like nicholas saputra.

i have no idea why im missing him.

2009-03-30T23:55:00.002+08:00

Free-IQTest.net - MENSA Test

140 and over
Genius or near genius

120-140
Very superior intelligence

110-120
Superior intelligence

90-110
Normal or average intelligence

80-90
Dullness

70-80
Borderline deficiency

Below 70
Definite feeble-mindedness

ok cool. got hope for me.

2009-03-30T21:05:00.003+08:00

i wanted to blog about something serious.

but then, i decided not to.
the mood just flew away just like that.

i think im in love...

and im looking forward to astro ria everytime i go back to jb now (:

2009-03-29T20:02:00.002+08:00

to the one who...

1) loves green tea
2) is a volunteer at SPCA concurrently
3) loves tofu like nobody's business
4) loves to eat but still maintains her slim figure
5) is a good manager
6) is a good friend
7) used to love hello kitty
8) used to wear braces
9) is my sunshine at starbucks
10) was God-sent to me

... happy happy 23rd (:

2009-03-26T21:22:00.003+08:00

last night i was logged on facebook,
having random chats with izzat, baharuddin and nabil on msn,
when suddenly i heard a 'pop' sound from one of the programs running in my laptop.

okay la, i'll do away with the suspense.
it came from the facebook chat.
this weird guy called kapila initiated a conversation.

i dont like weird people, especially when they say hi in the early wee hours of the morning.

it went like this:

K: hi.
Me: no answer.
K: hi again. u thr?
Me: no answer.
K: hi. i want 2 get 2 noe u more.
Me: *freaked out mode tahap maksima* still no answer.
K: hi. are you sri lankan? i like sri lankan gals

i cant help but burst out laughing before telling this to din.
he in return had asked me to hit the guy in any way possible.
i chose not to. im a very cool person, haha.

it's either i look like 90% of the girls there,
or the girls there look like ME!

either ways, not good, not good!

2009-03-24T21:27:00.003+08:00

i almost logged out of Facebook just now,
until i chanced upon this quiz:

"What Car Fits You Best?"
Mini Cooper

There isn't a place you can't reach. You like your car small but spicy.

i like it and all,
but...

the car costs a freaking $103,800,
with monthly instalments of $1026.
sape mau gi bayar!

of late,
i've been dreaming of driving cars.
my mum says that i very kemaruk nk berkereta, heh.

soon, mira.
soon.

2009-03-21T01:13:00.000+08:00

this picture was taken in the toilet at basement two,
while zila was happily peeing,
and her ($10!) specs were with me for safety sake, haha.

today, i realised im quite weird in my habits.

#1 - i dont consume carbonated drinks.

#2 - i dont drink any form of green tea (be it green tea frappe, green tea latte, yucks!).

#3 - come to think of it, i only drink ice lemon tea or mineral water when im outside.

#4 - pump shoes dont interest me; sneakers do.

#5 - brown bags attract me.

what a redundant blog entry.

2009-03-20T12:22:00.002+08:00

the plan was to catch a movie at vivo city,
and perhaps chill the whole day over there.

BUT!
the movie timings were nonsensical,
and we certainly ruled out the possibility of waiting three hours for any movie to start.

time check: 4.30pm.

haha.
so we had late lunch at banquet, since i was craving for chicken rice.
gila random.

kenneth called me and we chatted for quite long, before i gila random suggested to khairi that we should make a trip down to wilkie edge to see kenneth.

AND!
we decided to watch a movie at cathay.
it was either kevin james or dwayne (hot hot!) johnson.

i picked the former eventually.

super funny!
it's been a while since i laughed so hard in my seat!
the whole story plot in a shopping centre.
gila random cool!

then i had to choose between clarke quay or esplanade to chill.
i chose esplanade. gila random again!

esplanade was exceptionally quiet last night.
i like, i like.

my leg was swollen. i think the shoes are cursed.

people semangat please!
he went all the way to the minimart to buy two cups of milo ice cream!
first cup finished within minutes, second cup i think he couldnt finish, so he kept feeding it to me!

then long walk to raffles place mrt station.
we talked about stuff we can never talk about at work.
better still, he's a very nice guy actually.

thank you, khairi!

2009-03-19T10:00:00.003+08:00

i have a partner at starbucks called khairi,
and he says that people tell him he looks like anuar zain.
how true it is, i dont know.

i had a fifteen minutes chat with radhiah just now.

i love you but i hate you says:
but i cant stand it tt i myself mcm sekat2 blanjer....
just to spare some for him
he'll feel i dont care
wenever he angry...
he senyap...
that tortures me more lah

mysweatypalms. says:
haiz.
sorry babe i cant help.
anyway i gtg.
nk mandi
guess who im meeting later.

i love you but i hate you says:
hahahah
ur ex?

mysweatypalms. says:
anuar zain

i love you but i hate you says:
wad???
hahaha
how come?

mysweatypalms. says:
ntah.
he asked me out.

i love you but i hate you says:
in spore?

mysweatypalms. says:
OTAK KAU.

i love you but i hate you says:
hahahah
who lah...

mysweatypalms. says:
khairi la slenge.

i love you but i hate you says:
guessed so
heee
got contact balek?
btw before u go i wana say something
i think brunei is a jinx!
cos the last time my ex before yan pon p brunei and we broke up
hahahahah

mysweatypalms. says:
haha. maybe brunei girls attractive.

i love you but i hate you says:
khairi is that SB guy not ur ex
whahaha
confused shit!

mysweatypalms. says:
they much more kaya.

i love you but i hate you says:
ya i guess
hee

mysweatypalms. says:
outside brunei houses got minyak underground.

i love you but i hate you says:
why w khairi sak!!

radhiah slenge.
she really thought im going out with anuar zain later.

2009-03-16T12:50:00.002+08:00

in the midst of becoming superwoman and completing all unfinished work in this empty staffroom,
i have a sudden craving for strawberries - coated with chocolate.

it's been a while since i had those, and making a trip to town to get them seems impossible after last weekend.
the crowd was terrible and not to mention, traffic congestion almost everywhere.

maybe i shall succumb to making these chocolate-coated strawberries on my own.
gasp.

2009-03-15T21:25:00.002+08:00

yesterday was dinner with the family (minus my 2nd and 3rd sisters!) at harbourfront.
we ate at.....

breeks!
it's been ages since i ate there.

the food:

and yesterday was happy, happy day.
mum wanted the japanese blossom body lotion and the perfume from body shop.
being the filial daughter that i am (ehem ehem!),
i bought it for her.

and she gave me the japanese blossom perfume in return!
i love!

2009-03-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

if anyone needs to know,
im suffering from mild obssessive compulsive disorder.
any form of dissatisfaction or unhappiness can bring about a barrow of anxiety.

for the past months,
i've been trying my utmost best in making up for the materialistic things that i've lost.
for example,

MY pink psp
MY acer laptop

i already bought a matte bronze psp for myself a few months ago,
so thats done.

i've stopped spending unnecessarily for a couple of months for a laptop.
so on thursday,
i had to get a brand new laptop by hook or by crook.

it's not a want. it's a need.

$1.4k!
it came with free microsot office software,
an anti-virus cd,
a 4gb san cruzer thumbdrive,
an optical mouse,
a free cable modem.

i was so excited,
being broke for the rest of the month seemed to be alright for me, haha.

and here, i'd like to announce that i also have a new 320gb external hard disk.

cool isnt it! (:

my cat has its rewards too.

look at how cool my other cat is.
nitty-gritty details dont amuse her at all, heh.

so all, here's the checklist!

~~matte bronze psp~~
~~10megapixel fujipix camera~~
~~laptop~~
~~external hard disk~~
driving license

one more to go, people!

2009-03-10T22:49:00.002+08:00

hello. my name's amira.
the ceramic cup that im holding was scorching hot.
but for photography sake, i crossed all boundaries (hahah!).

this is noreena.
i think she's damn sexy despite the attempt to hurt herself with chopsticks.

apparently, it was a fruitless attempt.

now, i will showcase my lover to you.

now, i will showcase myself.

conveyer belts and i complement each other.

this is noreena's kenyang face. hot stuff ah she.

after downtown was white sands.
why was it called white sands anyway?

i love noreena cos she loves me.

2009-03-10T13:17:00.001+08:00

have you experienced the feeling of wanting something or someone so bad,
but you know you just cant have it for fear that you'll be disappointed for the umpteenth time?

im feeling the aftermath right now.

2009-03-08T13:19:00.002+08:00

i have to agree with what creamcheese (pumpsofbarmocha.blogspot.com) blogged about on 4 March 2009.

i personally dont get why someone's angry/furious/pissed off with me, for something i wasnt aware of.
im jubilant to announce that im so over your boyfriend eons ago.
im not crying over him, nor am i listening to sappy love songs by Stevie Wonder to nurse my broken heart.

like whatever.

why get all emotional and torn when he was using his star wars with my name chain hanging on it?
he's your boyfriend - you should know that all these nitty-gritty details dont bother him.
i bet he's even forgotten that my name chain's hanging cluelessly on it, tsk.

oh and should i mention that his hotmail password is still his ex-girlfriend's (during his sec school days) nickname?
i didnt make any fuss about it at all when we were together for the past 2 years because it's all over and done with between them.

the same way he requested that you study at nyp because its near his house.
isnt it convenient for both of you to meet?
why get all annoyed with a simple request and make it seem like everything's my fault?
i've already graduated from that school; your anger was redundant.

you hate drinking at starbucks now.
why? oh is it because im a certified learning coach and a coffeemaster at starbucks?
and cos your boyfriend's 'an expert' now in that particular area?
come on, wake up dear girl. wake up!
why do you have to throw away something you liked from the start just because i work there?
dont you think its worthless giving so much credit to me a.k.a the ex-girlfriend?

and you dedicated part of your entry on why being a teacher is a minus point now.
to quote your words, "kids nowadays are rude...."
sorry to disappoint you,
but i dont think they are.
rude is not a word to describe my students, let alone any primary school students now.
you're not their teacher, so how would you know?

before you come attacking me, dear girl,
please do replect upon your words and think using your creative brains.
do you have to hate me just because im your boyfriend's ex-girlfriend?
you hate everything i do,
you hate the places i've been with him,
for what?

if you need to know,
im friends with his ex-girlfriends and ex-scandals and what-nots.
so i can safely bet with you...

... that the problem doesnt lie with me.

2009-03-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

dear french horn player/trumpeter,

i dont know why i yearn to hear from you nowadays.
i wish that friday night didnt have to end.

love,
the clarinetist.

2009-03-04T21:39:00.002+08:00

my number one agenda on my list for today:

flashcards for the kiddos!

i just adore the adrenaline rush of cutting the words,
reading them aloud as the blade of the cutter runs through the paper.

the week has been traumatising.
rushing through the reports and remarks for the kiddos,
counting their exam scores and what-nots.
i had to juggle so many things, but so little time set aside!
but i work well with pressure - thats the fun of it all.

i love, i love!

2009-02-25T18:40:00.002+08:00

i feeling-feeling wanna be a cool and composed teacher.
sometimes, my students just make me lose my temper (and hair)!

classic scenario #1:

"cikgu, saya tk bawak kerja rumah semalam."

and me, wanting to become a cool and composed teacher said, "kosongkan beg awak skrg."
so this student, emptied all the contents of his bag.
there were two squashed chocolate buns, covered with algae,
and worksheets that looked as if they just came out from the washing machine.

just when i thought there were nothing else in his bag,
he took this out:

MAJALAH PERKAHWINAN??
the thick wedding magazine??
and he left my stack of worksheets at home?

tak patut, tak patut.

and im a cool and composed teacher, remember?
so i told him, "awak ni gatal sangat nk kahwin?"

classic scenario #2:

today was my students' malay paper.
the kiddos were to stay in the form class to take the paper, instead of their mother tongue classroom.
so i met my kiddos after the paper, asking them whether they had problems with the paper.
this girl raised up her hand and said, "cikgu, tadi za'im ambil kertas saya. dier tiru saya!"

i was like, "huh?"
someone copied your paper, and instead of telling the invigilator in-charge, you chose to tell me after two bloody hours?

so i confronted the boy.
he kept quiet.
gave me the i-know-i-did-something-wrong-but-dont-wanna-tell-you-look and decided to keep mum.
i finally decided that for the good of all human beings of the world,
i'd better threaten him.

and he blurted out, "cikgu, saya copy tapi saya tukar nama dier!"
then he covered his mouth.

what. the. hell.

classic scenario #3:

this scenario deserves a one-line entry.
my primary 5EM3 didnt sit for their paper just now,
and told another teacher i didnt inform them that it was their malay paper today.

funny or what.
i just told them yesterday, and this morning.

kesian, short-term memory rupa-rupanye!

2009-02-24T12:55:00.004+08:00

to all, i've changed my msn/email address.
im not using amira_diabolique@hotmail.com anymore (:

if you've been catching up with the happenings in my life,
you'd realise that i've deleted some posts on my blog.

just a few days ago,
my sister asked whether i was okay after the whole fiasco.
when people asked me what actually happened between me and him,
i'd just shrug my shoulders and say, "I dont know."

frankly, i really have zilch idea what happened.
or why this had to happen, for that matter.
everything crumbled down suddenly - i didnt even have time to spell w-a-i-t.

to answer my sister's question,
i think i am alright.
im coping well, i guess.
maybe three years ago, i might be crying my eyes out, accompanied by the sappy love songs by n'sync or even backstreet boys.
concurrently, im head-banging happily to the sounds of muse and fall out boy.
why head-banging? i dont know, haha.

i feel so numb now, until i find myself not crying for him,
or even feel sad.

like what aisyah said, maybe it's because i've anticipated this to happen.

whatever it is, i've moved on.
im looking ahead in life, plan bigger and better things now.

syahril, karma's a bitch.
it will eat into you slowly.

2009-02-23T17:23:00.002+08:00

aku rasa lain beberapa hari ini.
sudah tiga minggu aku terbatuk-batuk, tak sembuh-sembuh pula.
kepala aku pula selalu pening tak tentu pasal.
ibu selalu mengomel - katanya aku degil kerana enggan makan ubat.

bukan enggan tapi aku malas.
bukannya penting, kan?

hari itu aku hampir-hampir hendak ke klinik Doktor Foo.
apakan daya, duitku telah ku ketepikan untuk membeli komputer riba yang baharu.

mungkin kerana kepalaku pening, macam-macam yang telah ku mimpikan semenjak tiga minggu yang lalu.
semalam, aku bermimpi yang ibuku sedang di dapur memasak sambal udang untuk sarapan.
(udang merupakan makanan kegemaranku di dunia ini)
mimpi itu seakan-akan betul lah.
apabila ku terjaga dari tidur, ku terus ke dapur.
rupa-rupanya ibu sedang memanaskan donut sahaja.

terbantut sekejap nak bersarapan.

aku teringin sangat nak makan sambal udang.

2009-02-22T21:22:00.001+08:00

Dear Amira Aminnudin,

This morning I woke up and I was re-visiting our sms discourse last night. It took me eight years to realise why we still turn to each other in good times, and bad. Each of us have been through some shit in life and we deal with them in the same way, you realise that? We rarely cry when we confide in each other because we prefer to cry alone but we still know it when anyone of us is crumbling down.I remember the last time we held an SOS meeting over at beetsma's, I almost had a cardiac arrest when I heard what you've been through.If killing is not a sin,I would have destroyed those jerks who have hurt you thus far.As I've said before,I don't comprehend why anyone would want to hurt someone like you.However I think we have got to let go certain things in life that are beyond our control and take heed of the more important blessings that we have, like our families!You're a sensitive soul but still stubborn and strong as a steel,with a big humble heart.You're stronger and more mature now,and I hope you know what's best for you.We have gone through different routes in life but I am so proud of what you've achieved and where you are at right now.You will meet your prince charming who will treat you with love and respect.You will succeed and have a nice beautiful family and life will turn out good for you,cos you deserve it.Thank you for being there for me and for seeing me grow these past years.Life has more adventures in store for us and you can be assured I'll be keeping you company for a long long time.Happy 21st Birthday Beautiful :)

yours truly,
the girl who likes to go to your house but is afraid of your cat,
Nisa.

it'll be real nice to have the SOS meeting again.

2009-02-19T20:17:00.000+08:00

so it was a simple 21st celebration.
no parties, no birthday bashes - just the way i wanted it to be.

thank you to everyone who actually remembered my birthday, and also to those who left me messages on facebook.

it's the thought the counts, y'all.

from aisyah, kok leong and augustine:

from my dad:

from myself (finding a reason to spend unnecessarily):

from my students:

from my sister:

from samuel:

happy birthday to me, thanks to everyone once again (:

i received a lot of things that i like,
but lost the one thing that truly mattered to me in my life.

2009-02-18T11:32:00.001+08:00

Baby baby,

When we first met I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

one more day (:

2009-02-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

it took me more than two years to forgive you.
now i dont think im gonna forgive you at all.

three more days.

2009-02-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

the plan was to watch the wedding game,
but then the timings merepek nk mampos.
so we settled on this:

slumdog millionaire.
we were worried that the movie might not be to our liking.
but we were proved to be soooooo wrong!
the movie's great, the lead actor was hot, the storyline was perfect.

before that we went to eat at..... pastamania!
prawn aglio, yummmmmmeh.

i dont mean to tell everyone her problems,
but zila was stood up by her date.
yes, her valentine's day date.
the guy looks decent, but looks can be very deceiving ya?

and for me?
wah. still waiting for syahril to come back from brunei.

then i had retail therapy.
sinful, i tell you!
so much for saving money to buy laptop next month.

new shoes yet again.
the new balance shoes i wanted was gone!
so ya, had to settle for second best.

and if it helps,
i just bought a new dress from dorothy perkins.
itchy hands sia.

five more days!

2009-02-12T23:37:00.002+08:00

at west coast...

... nice tong sampah!

2009-02-11T20:11:00.002+08:00

i've always had fetishes for bags, sneakers and potatoes.
i spent half an hour surveying shoes online, found a few which i really like, and then another fifteen minutes thinking whether i should purchase them or not.

but then syahril will kill me if he finds out that im spending unnecessarily - during his absence somemore!

sitting on my shoes rack are:

#1: my puma suede

#2: my green jazz

#3: my brown everlast

#4: my knitted vans

#5: my maroon adidas

#6: (my) adidas falcon

#7: my blue checkered pumps

#8: my purpur crocs

#1, #3 and #4 were bought by the ex-boyfriend.
im not that kind to throw away things bought my ex-boyfriends,
and i love shoes.
so these shoes still stay on the shoe rack.

#6 was given by dad.
he found those shoes at the carpark when he was washing the car.
on account that i love adidas,
and thinking that they were jogging shoes,
my dad took the liberty of kutip-ing the shoes.
syahril told me months later that they were golf shoes, haha.

#7 and #8 bought at the john little and metro expo sale respectively.
they're pump shoes and i need them for school anyway.

#2 and #5 were bought using my own money.
no regrets there.

so you see, i love sneakers!

and i want:

plus the new balance shoes at raffles city shopping centre.
can eh syahril? can eh? can eh?

2009-02-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

check out this cool vid.

given a choice, i would run.

2009-02-09T18:33:00.003+08:00

aisyah was on medical leave today.
and i was battling with cough and flu.
my primary fives were such darlings - they were so cooperative today.
my primary fours as usual - they only obliged to my instructions after i screamed my head off.
my primary threes were getting on my nerves, like always.

but mondays have always been the most relaxed day of the school week.

i left school after marking all the books.
the plan was to drop by gek poh shopping centre to replenish my stock of candies in
the school cupboard.
but then i boarded the same bus as three of my students.
we were talking non-stop in the bus (actually they were shouting CIKGU AMIRA in the bus),
in which i decided to bring them for some early dinner since i was kinda famished.

this is hirkee.
he's quite lovable actually, apart from those sahlakau sakongsa talks of his.
i will always tell him, "macam paham!" everytime he starts talking about piercings and tattoos.

this one i like.
asri, my primary six eyecandy in school.
it took me several attempts to make him stay in his seat so that i can have his picture taken.
shy pie or what.

this is hirree.
he's hirkee's younger brother.
both hirkee and hirree have ten siblings in total!
TEN, i tell you!
and their parents are only 30+ years old.
terror or what!

talking to these kids,
made me think so much.
about life, about teaching, about empathy for other people.

ten more days to being a full-fletched adult,
six more days to syahril coming back.

2009-02-06T19:10:00.002+08:00

di sini aku ingin mengatakan bahawa aku tidak suka dengan lelaki yang berkepala botak.
dari kecil hingga ke besar, aku memang tidak gemar melihat kaum Adam yang tidak berambut.
tetapi yang peliknya, aku pangkar habis-habisan lelaki yang bermisai, berjanggut dan mempunyai dada yang berbulu.

sesungguhnya aku tidak tahu mengapa aku berbual tentang rambut dan bulu.

aku rindu betul dengan syahril (ini tiada kena mengena dengan rambut dan bulu, ya?).
apa agaknya yang sedang dilakukannya sekarang di Brunei?
mungkin dia dipaksa untuk makan sayur.
ataupun terpaksa duduk di dalam hutan bertemankan nyamuk dan makhluk-makhlus halus.
syahril, cepatlah balik.
aku hampir suku gila memikirkan keadaan kamu tau.

aku rasa, aku harus berhenti sahaja impianku untuk berlari anak setiap malam.
khairi telah menghantar 30 Ferrero Rocher melalui pos kepadaku.
samuel pula telah mengirimkan berplastik-plastik cokelat yang beraneka saiz dan rasa.
wah, syiok!

tiga belas hari lagi.

2009-02-02T11:50:00.000+08:00

i hate friendster.

2009-02-01T01:56:00.002+08:00

hari ini aku banyak berfikir secara rawak.

tadi di gerabak keretapi sewaktu di Boon Lay,
aku ternampak seorang lelaki berbangsa Cina berlari dengan semangat untuk menyelit masuk ke keretapi yang hampir tutup pintunya.
dia tidak berjaya.
malahan, badannya sudah setengah masuk ke dalam keretapi tersebut.
untuk menutup malu, dia mula memaki-hamun keretapi itu.

macamlah keretapi itu faham percakapannya.
aku rasa, kalau boleh menjawab, memang sudah lama keretapi itu maki balik.

buah fikiran #1:

bayangkan kalau badan akulah yang setengah masuk ke dalam keretapi itu.
hmmm.
aku rasa aku akan keluar dari stesen keretapi itu.
naik bas lagi selamat.

sesudah aku berebut tempat duduk dengan seorang nyonya kiasu nak mampus,
aku pun menyumbat telinga dengan earphones psp aku.
aku mula berkhayal.
namun, seperti biasa, lamunanku terhenti dengan mendadak.
seorang lelaki muda hilang imbangan ketika berjalan dalam kabin itu.
dia pun bengap juga.
dia berjalan apabila keretapi itu mula bergerak juga.
dah begitu tak apa,
nak step terror - dia tak pegang pun palang besi.

sekali dia jatuh.
bukan di lantai.
tetapi terpeluk seorang nyonya yang sedang duduk di hadapanku.
sudah jatuh tak apa, tak boleh bangun pula.

untuk menutup malu, dia pun angkat kaki ke kabin yang lagi satu.
aku rasa aku terbahak sekejap melihat gelagatnya.

buah fikiran #2:

kalaulah aku yang jatuh,
aku akan ketawa dahulu.
baharu aku buat kawan dengan nyonya itu.

sesuatu berlaku tadi ketika aku sedang melungsuri Internet.
aku enggan beritahu apa yang berlaku,
tetapi dalam kepala otak aku ini ada soalan:
lelaki semuanya samakah?

buah fikiran #3:

kalau semuanya sama,
matilah aku tak kahwin.
aku sudah boleh mula berfikir tentang pengambilan anak angkat.
ala-ala Angelina Jolie.

Syahril telah pun berangkat ke Brunei.
mungkin untuk masa dua minggu ini,
cukup untuk dia dan aku berfikir tentang perhubungan kita.
hmmm.

buah fikiran #4:

aku rasa senang sekali kalau ada perselisihan faham dengannya.
dia akan bertanya kepadaku dengan cara yang baik,
yang membuatku tersentak sejenak.
dalam bahasa Inggeris, "we end up talking instead of fighting."

lagi lapan belas hari.

2009-01-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

hari ini, terasa pula keinginan untuk mengemaskini blog menggunakan bahasa Melayu.
entah mengapa, impak kemarahan lebih terselah jika ditulis dalam bahasa Melayu.

hari ini juga, aku telah meluangkan 20 minit dari masa harianku untuk berlari-lari anak di kawasan perumahanku.
mungkin juga, ketika berlari, rasa kebengisan akan lenyap dengan serta-merta.

semalam, syahril terburu-buru meninggalkan rumahku setelah menerima panggilan daripada ibu saudaranya.
katanya, ada masalah keluarga sedikit.
sememangnya, aku bukanlah seorang yang banyak bertanya.
lagipun, keadaan semalam huru-hara juga ketika dia menerima panggilan tersebut.
aku pun sedang menikmati hidangan udang - tidak sempat untuk mengucapkan selamat tinggal dengan sempurna.
tidak manis kalau aku berbual dan sisa-sisa udang tergantung di tepi gigiku, kan?

sudah sehari suntuk syahril tidak menghubungiku.
rasa ganjil pula tiada orang yang menelefon ketika aku sedang buntu memikirkan murid-muridku yang setengah dajal itu.

jadi hari ini, aku hanya dapat meluahkan perasaan geramku pada aisyah.
aisyahlah yang mendengar luahanku, dialah yang banyak beri pengajaran untukku.
aku hampir-hampir berputus asa dengan kerjaya yang baharu sahaja bermula ini.
entah mengapa, hatiku rasa berat beberapa hari ini untuk ke kelas.

apakah aku seseorang yang senang berputus asa?
ataupun keadaan sekolah ini yang membuatku begini?

aku tidak boleh berhenti begitu sahaja.
sudah banyak dugaan yang ditempuh dalam masa 6 bulan mengajar di sekolah ini.

banyak sungguh perkara yang menghinggap di benak fikiranku ini.
berkecamuk.
bercelaru.
sakit otak jika difikirkan.

dan yang paling sedih?
aku tiada tempat mengadu.

mahu juga aku hentakkan kepalaku di tembok Hannah Montana adikku.

2009-01-27T20:00:00.009+08:00

we went to the zoo today.
the people involved were:

obviously me. and dini.

lala. dina.

shikin, lala's best friend.

and syahril.

EH SORRY. WRONG PICTURE! haha.

ah! now this is the correct one.
and syahril :)

okay let's start with the cliche line - i'll let pictures do the talking!

more pictures in my facebook y'all!
and love, thank you so much okay?

2009-01-26T18:58:00.003+08:00

syahril's in camp now doing guard duty.
mum's not in the mood to cook.
i havent done anything productive for the past three days.
on a brighter note, tomorrow's zoo day!

oh, and i did this quiz on Facebook:

What Band Instrument Are You?

You are a mellow person who is good at persuasive talking, but you can get easily angered when passionate about something. You have a wide, accommodating personality.

how true.

2009-01-25T11:02:00.003+08:00

went out with syahril today.
guess what we watched?

super funny impak maksima! haha.
this is my first time watching jack neo's movie.
it left quite a good impression, thumbs up (:

then, lunch!

and then my camera battery died.
anti-climax!

then, he bought my very advanced birthday present.

i love, okay!
my fetish for watches getting out of hand already, heh.

and then it was dinner at my house.
my family loved him.

so overall?

i love my new gadget,
and i love syahril, hehe.

2009-01-22T23:04:00.002+08:00

i meant to complete my lesson plan for this week.
yet another failed attempt.

instead, im chatting with nurul and linda.
check this out:

this made me laugh like crazy,
now i lost all the mood i can have to do up my lesson plan.

will make a mental note to show my students this video tomorrow!

2009-01-18T10:06:00.003+08:00

yesterday was a weird day.
syahril fell asleep at home while waiting for me, and he didnt wake up even after 83 missed calls and 15 knocks on his front door.

thank you zila for "taking me in".
i havent thanked you enough! :)

anyway,
back to the story.

suddenly while i was falling asleep at starbucks rc's comfortable cushion seats,
i received a missed call from syahril, the tired ns boy.
i heard a flustered, exhausted, disgusting voice of an ns boy who just woke up from his long-deserving beauty sleep.

"sayang! im sorry, really! very-very sorry! i thought it was a 5-min sleep! tkde niat nk buat you cam gini!!

so the next few minutes, he was trying to convince me to forgive him.
he sounded very apologetic and sincere, actually.
but i was an angry person at the time what.
how can easily let people off like that, haha.

so we met eventually.
with me giving him a dressing-down on how evil he was in falling asleep when he was the one who insisted that i come over.

well, i was half-anticipating for this to happen,
because syahril just returned from route march on friday (hahahaha kesian!).
this was the first part of the day.

the second part...

...for those who think that my boyfriend is a shy person

he wanted two necks so badly. he deserves a double chin actually.

he looks like a friend of mine from swiss here.

gila.

like the swiss roll my mum loves to make.

pretend only.

pretend macho!

papaya.

syahril used to be fat until secondary four. this was how he looked like.

must try also.

if you guys watched beetlejuice, he looks like one of them.

horse-faced.

kuda mengamok.

tsk tsk.

haha.

he looks like joker from batman.

the only proper picture.

my jendol. must cut fringe yet again.

edward and bella. we name our shoes okay!

then we sat at the open area at vivo.

dinner was at macdonalds.
super filling, i tell you!
i finished my mega mac on my own yesterday. kebulur.

syahril, i forgive you la.
dont keep feeling guilty.
i still love you okay, heh.

worth waiting :)

2009-01-14T11:50:00.002+08:00

yesterday evening, i went ballistic.

my two days' worth of hardwork gone in a flash - apparently due to "bad disk".
i have zero idea what triggered it,
but all i know is:

i just burned the midnight oil preparing this lesson plan,
and it just disappeared from my thumbdrive just like that.

no backup copy by the way.
so i have to start from scratch now.

in addition, i've also decided to finish up another lesson plan by end of this week.
two lesson plans in one week: not that feasible in my context.

syahril: this saturday, you still have a lot of things to do, right?
me: guess so. why?
syahril: on saturday, i'll bring my laptop to vivo, then we do your lesson plan together okay?
me: really? oh that'll be cool. thank you!
syahril: we'll skip the movies on saturday. we'll just lepak at starbucks to finish up your work, set?
me: *silence*

and im still in awe.
maybe to most of you, this hadnt meant anything.
but to me,
it meant a lot.

thank you, syahril (:

2009-01-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

today i am superwoman.

i completed all the markings after school,
the primary 3, 4, 5 spelling lists,
the workplan for parents,
and prepared materials for tomorrow's lessons.

i feel so accomplished today :)

happy one month old, syahril.
haha.
i love you many many.

2009-01-09T21:03:00.002+08:00

we planned to meet this sunday.
planned what to wear, where to go, what to eat, and what to do.

then my mum (half-parent, half-dictator haha) happily declared that the whole family's off to jb for the weekend.

hopes crushed. so today, before he goes back to camp at 10.30pm,
i told myself that by hook or by crook, must see him move.

MUST SEE HIM MOVE AND BERGERAK SOMEHOW.

now we have to meet next weekend, before he leaves for brunei.
and if you're wondering, he wont be back for my birthday next month.

APA NI!

2009-01-07T10:40:00.001+08:00

something worth clicking on:

we were all so cute (:

and i was in the same class as fahmi? lol.

2009-01-05T17:17:00.003+08:00

syahril, it really does feel good:

1) meeting you only on weekends,
2) forcing you to hear my ayam betina and ikan jantan jokes,
3) trying my best to pull you into footwear shops,
4) coaxing you to stop complaining about ns life,
5) planning our financials together (hahahah this one funny),
6) seeing you eat bubur ayam because your teeth hurts.

i still owe you 70 reasons why i love you.
i hope you can wait because:

im the form teacher of primary 3.5 now,
i teach primary 3, 4 and 5 malay,
im in the pupils' suggestions scheme and school editorial committee,
i have endless (surprise) meetings after school,
i teach tuition on tuesdays and fridays.

and it's only the second day of school.

2009-01-04T09:34:00.003+08:00

it was crazy.

first stop was sb-rc, where we requested for zila to make drinks for us, heh.
for some reason, i told myself not to step into sb-r2 anymore (gasp!).

second stop was marina square to buy tickets for:

bedtime stories!!!
the movie was superb! hilariously funny.
and i love bugsy. look at his big, round eyes.

third stop was dinner.
we initially wanted to go to zamzam but decided it'd be too much of a hassle since he had to book in by 10pm.

days with him around, are always perfect (:
(cepat sikit ORD hor!)

2009-01-02T22:18:00.003+08:00

at the end of the day, you've disappointed me as a friend.
i still cannot comprehend what a soft-hearted person i am, when it comes to helping friends in need.

perhaps back then, my primary school teachers stressed far too much on 'a friend in need is a friend indeed'. tsk.

millions of excuses you've given me,
billions of trips i've made to the atm after those empty promises you've provided me,
made me cringe in disgust and fear.

disgusted that i helped a person like you,
fear of losing a friend like you.

2009-01-01T15:25:00.003+08:00

three packets of prawn crackers, a bottle of H20, and two bottles of mineral water.

this is my #1 starbucks fan.

2008-12-29T22:30:00.001+08:00

it was project noreena yesterday,
and project aisyah today (:

i miss you syahril.
come back soon?

2008-12-27T12:36:00.008+08:00

yesterday syahril and i went to the....

its been years since i've been there!
the place certainly has changed a lot!

i was so busy running around the whole place, pressing buttons, heh.
suddenly my sprained ankle mcm da baik gitu.

see my bandaged foot?

then we did this gene compatibility tests against animals.
mine was 72% similar to the mouse.
his was 95% similar to the MONKEY!
lets laugh, please!

we took the morphis ride at the omnimax theatre,
and watched the alps at the iMax!

(: he sent me to starbucks citylink to meet my favourite manager,
and off he went to malaysia for a three-day vacation.
awwwwwww.

this is my faourite manager, who just cut her hair.
now she looks all emo and indie.
must bring her to esplanade and play gigs now.

heh. perfect day, yet again (:

2008-12-25T09:47:00.001+08:00

click on it.

to wake up at 9am, and to realise that im not teaching the lower primary...

...scared the hell out of me.

2008-12-23T10:08:00.002+08:00

late dinner/supper at kfc marina square.

sorry i couldnt make it in time to watch your coffee presentation.
all thanks to my sprained ankle.

2008-12-22T10:42:00.002+08:00

syahril: how come he looks like a weirdo here?
amira: a hot weirdo, you mean!
syahril: like me?
amira: but you're not a weirdo.
syahril: but im hot.

the things we randomly talk about.

2008-12-20T00:29:00.002+08:00

today, i didnt feel like sleeping early.
so this was what i did:

1 - browsing through pictures at facebook.

2 - chatting with syahril, who just came back from field camp.

3 - syahril mispelled "bed" as "bad". ni la dier org ngantok.

4 - he is very loyar buruk.

and to think im meeting him in less than 12 hours later.

2008-12-17T19:17:00.004+08:00

finally.

"hutan tu byk hantu tau! come back soon la please (:"

2008-12-15T21:33:00.002+08:00

good reads and good movies are a must during december holidays.
i recently bought a book from times bookstore.

the book is extraordinary!
if you wanna read it, email me.
i can lend you, heh.

and last tuesday, i watched muallaf,
after positive comments given by noreen.

go watch at cathay picturehouse.

two weeks more to school!

2008-12-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

the weekend was a blast.

thursday night he fetched me from work.
we played dj max on my psp for a good thirty minutes until we reached boon lay.
he sent me home, and we were both hyped up for our date on friday (:

we met on friday morning, and spent the whole day together.
pictures, pictures (of him only, haha):

adidas shoes or what!

it took him close to five hours on deciding whether he really wanted those shoes.

i wasnt planning to go dutch.
so he said, "you pay for movies, i pay for food? set?"
and noreen texted me saying, "make sure the food is more expensive, hee."

i've never really gone for a real date, actually.

we watched...

nick and norah's infinite playlist!
i loved the movie, the storyline, everything!
8/10, please!

the day ended with him sending me home,
and me, sending him off to bedok camp the next morning.

this is what i call, perfect.

2008-12-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

it's true when they say, "what you dont know, wont hurt at all."

2008-12-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

my favourite coffee of all times.

cant wait for starbucks' open house (:
i love.

pictures from the cheer party coming up, once paul decides to pass them to me, heh.

2008-11-30T22:20:00.002+08:00

so the shift was great.

both my learners, nurul and linda, have completed their Barista Learning Journey guide.
a few more coffee tastings to go before their coffee passport can be certified too.
im so excited for them, heh.

im so torn apart.
sb-r2 has changed totally;
i have partners who'll vent their anger for no rhyme or reason by slamming all the milk pitchers wherever they want.
partners who dont care about housekeeping anymore.
partners who just refuse to cooperate.

so yesterday, samuel asked me the golden question: whether i wanna join him at sb-we.

im evaluating the pros and cons right now.

2008-11-28T19:46:00.002+08:00

the shoutings, the noise, the cries, the tears.

i clench my fists and stare into space.
it was the same, eight years ago.
you've hurt her so many times, but there was never a single time she would dare raise her voice at you.

she woke up in the morning to cook, to wash, to your satisfaction.
tell me, what else do you want?

im so sorry, i lost total respect for you.
suddenly, i dont feel sorry that i lost the ring you bought for me.
i dont feel the guilt of losing my laptop months ago.
i feel like smashing the phone you bought for me.
i wished i could throw ALL the cash you've spent on me back at your stinking face.

i've garnered enough courage to say this: i hate you.

i hate you to the core.
i want to spit at you, for treating MY MOTHER that way.

now let me get this clear.
i will do well in my future studies for her, not you.
never will i talk about you with high respect anymore.

you've never seen a daughter's hatred, have you?
now you do.

dont be shocked if ever one day, i quit teaching and become a shift manager at starbucks.

lets see whether you can still boast about having a daughter who's a teacher.
i'll have the last laugh; revenge is very sweet.

2008-11-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

according to Paul Sweeney,
“You know you've read a good book when you turn the last page and feel a little as if you have lost a friend.”

then you guys should read this:

i've been reading too many good books lately, and i love the smell of public libraries now.
i would highly recommend this book, and im lost for words now because it's really well-written; it kinda affected my E.Q somehow.
imagine your first love leaving you to pursue his dreams, and then coming back for you six years later - after you're happily attached with another man.

scary.

anyway, you wont believe what i watched this evening at jurong point with dina and dini.

wonderful. now people think im into fairies and lost kingdoms.
i would gladly trade this for madagascar 2, but the two kiddos were too excited wanting to watch winx club.

i shall go bury myself after this.

and thank you so very the much, dad, for the whole lot of goodies you paid for just now.
i just love mega sales, dont you agree?

hooray to the fact that it's a family day out today, heh.

2008-11-25T15:22:00.002+08:00

~~clean desk~~

~~cluster west 3 workshop~~

~~cluster west 3 cultural camp~~

i cant stop smiling from ear to ear now (:

2008-11-21T21:20:00.001+08:00

my mum, yes, my mum, sang this yesterday:

"ooooooooooo.....BAMA!"

oh great. now she's into politics.

2008-11-20T10:56:00.004+08:00

just a few days ago, aisyah texted me saying that she felt like "having macdonalds or long john silver" for breakfast.
im almost sick of macdonalds breakfast meals and what not, so i decided on long john silver - for the very simple reason, i've never eaten breakfast there before.

to my dismay, the breakfast sets at long john werent as appealing as i'd thought it would be (excuse me while i rant here).
maybe i've never enjoyed paying $5.90 for a piece of roasted chicken sandwiched between toasted breads.

perhaps i should succumb to buying the necessities for my mum, and she could make an even better breakfast than that.

so while exiting long john silver, i asked aisyah, "does KFC have breakfast sets?"

aisyah was unsure, but seeing how KFC's menu board were lighted up brightly,
i was half-jumping on the way there just to check what they have.

and this was what i had eventually:

there were two types of twisters: original and american.
the difference, you might ask?

original twister: chicken, scrambled eggs, tomato, cheese.
american twister: turkey ham, scrambled eggs, hashbrown, cheese.

i totally dig the original twister (because im a chicken lover) and the set comes with any drink, with honey biscuits:

superb, i tell you.
go spend one of the mornings there, enjoy twistering original or american.

oh, my new psp:

and the only game im indulged in concurrently:

Dj Max Portable (:

and the last thing that completed my first week of holidays:

i read, read, and never stop reading.

2008-11-18T13:52:00.002+08:00

give me an H!

an O!

an L!

an I!

a D!

an A!

a Y!

holiday! the school holidays are here!
believe me, im as relieved as the kids are when school holidays are concerned (:

checklist is a must, especially when you have Cikgu (insertnamehere) as your senior teacher:

~~clean desk~~

cluster west 3 workshop

cluster west 3 cultural camp

as you can see, the battle is not even half-completed yet.
i'll get there, soon.